Salam. Heh. Rite. Its almost the second week of the exam week, I still have 3 papers to go through, but I’m not studying though, dem. Haha. Hmm. I’m hoping so by the end of next week, I’ll be home. But its unlikely though, there’s many things for me to take care bout first, then only I can go home, heh. Whatever it is, i‘ll start my practical on 5th of june, heh, jgn jeles, hehe. So, I quess it won’t be much prob even if I went home abit late, I also dunno why it was like that. I think those IPTURA’s student there are still on leave eh? That’s why they wanted us to start on 5th. Maybe, dunno bout it though. Haha.
So uh, what was I’m going to mention bout today eh? Hmm. Feel like I’m going to talk bout frenship, heh, what is a friend actually? What it is? Hmm? Anybody had the precise answer for that particular question? Heh. Depends rite? It depends on an individual perception eh? Hmm. I also don’t wanna tell people what I think about friends. Heh. But, I’m telling you guys, don’t make your friends feel like their placed had been replaced. Rite? You go and ‘lepak’ with your old friends and start talking bout your new friends, without even asking bout them whatsoever, wtf eh? Sure they’ll feel like they had been neglected, alienated, and feel like their place had been taken away. Hey, I’ve felt it many times already, let they do that to me, hopefully I won’t done it to anybody else. Making new friends is not a prob, I’m not saying it is, nope, just, DON”T make they feel like their place had been replaced. I don’t like that feeling, and I hope I won’t make anybody else feel like that. Let me only feel that. Ok? Remember that, always. So, hmm, salam, I’m gone.
Surrender
salam, its nearly the xm week eh? everybody's strugling for their final, heheh, including me, hmm, hopefully my result this sem will be better than the previous one, huhu, hope i'll increase my cgpa also, haha, so ah, good luck and all the best for the final exam eh?
also, today is a mother's day, so, i'll take this opportunity to wish my mom a happy mother's day, thnx for all you've done for me all this time, love you so very much, miss you also, been awhile since we meet, been awhile since we talk also eh?
here i quote a poem i've read somewhere in the net,
"We only have One Mom, One Mommy, One Mother in this World, One life. Don't wait for the Tomorrow's, to tell Mom, you love her" -author's unknown-
so ah, happy mother's day and a happy exam week. haha.
Salam. my life has go on for already 21 years, but still, i'm depending on my parents. Arghh. after having nice talks with my friends last night, i've been thinkin', what am i goin' to do with my life after this? hahah, its not like i'll grad out with good pointer, but still, i'm hoping for it and i'll try gaining it, also my PR is not that good, i'm kinda hard to gain people trust and harder to being trusted. heh.
i've been living with myself only, never care bout what people would say bout me, never care bout my relationship with people, never think deep about anything, but, now only i realize, emotional is kinda complicated things, my ignorance before had never open my eyes into realizing it, heh.
even rite now, emotionally, everything seems to get mixed up together, fresnship, trust, love, hate, i dunno how to express myself, and rite now, i'm not yet living my life, i'm living a life of a son. and i'm being too dependant, and i kinda hate that nowadays. heh.
and later, i'll be living my own life (hopefully), gave back what my parents had gave to me, i'll be serving them back, i'll be serving my ownself, i'll be having my own family, and they'll depends on me. would i be able to do what my parents had done to me? would i be able to serve my family? would they be able to stand on me? and would i be able to complete my task as a Muslim father? would i be able to serve Him good as a man, a son, a husband and a father?
i've been tryin' to throw away my ignorant self, try to get a better self, and ah, thanks to Him for giving life to me, Mak and Ayah, thanks for letting me live. and ah, all my friends, thanks for acknowledging me. and ah, for that someone, hmm, i woudn't know how to say about my feeling upon you. i've never feel anything like this before, so ah, i wouldn't know how to response to it, man, i'm kinda feel sorry for myself. heh.
I never seem to understand, the time, the place and who I am; Define a way to stay alive, It's like I'm living a lie -In Flames : Free Fall-
so ah, salam. i'm gone. heh.