I saw you look away
Is what you've seen too much to take
Or are you blind and seeing nothing?
-Bullet For My Valentine : Hands Of Blood-
My heart is worn out to keep beating
My lungs exhausted by all this breathing
My mind's too tired to keep grieving
My throat is too sore for more screaming
My eyes too swollen for more weeping
My wounds are too dry for more bleeding
My blood too drained for more streaming
Salam. Rite, just finish with my Crypto assignment 2, got another … 5 to take care of, arghh, nevermind that, just wanna relax abit, so I’ve decide to make scratch here, huehue, its almost the end of the semester already, time pass by so fast you couldn’t even notice em, my family had moved to a new house today, I don’t have a chance to place my butt inside anytime soon, huehue, neway, even during Aidil Adha I will be here I suppose, mkn MCD mase raye, isk2, cam aku dok luar negare je, hakhak, my sis had been asking whether I’m going back home for Aidil Adha, well, I guest its not happening sis, Aidil Adha is during my xm week, uhuh, kalo nak sev bajet, jln kaki aa balek Aloq Staq, hakhak, lepas seminggu sure sampai,
Rite now everything seem to be taking place nicely, hmm, its kinda weird I would say, if everything flows on nicely, there’s sure something that I’ve overlooked anywhere, dem, it sure drive cold shiver through my body just by thinking bout it, could just hope so nothing unfortunate would be happening, man, I’m afraid that I wouldn’t stand the pressure anymore, rite now, I feel like being bent and just waiting to break, huhu, hope so it wouldn’t happen eh? Doa2kan untuk aku, I even goes back for a pack, huhu, man, I would say, this is just temporary, sementara, hopefully,
I wanna go to Rock The World 7, many nice band is performing, I wanna go to Myproof mini concert, I wanna see The Hidden and Blood on Wedding Dress perform, but its not happening, apakan daya, masa tidak menyebelahiku, arghh, haha.
I’ve read an article bout human psychology among people in America, statistically, they said that Americans, 44% of them are more to suicidal tendencies, and 27% are into homicidal tendencies, if you ask me, that is scary, I mean, you wouldn’t want to be dead just because another guys wants to be dead, rite? Huhu, maybe they’ve done a research in a high crime rating place like Harlem or even the big city New York. I would say, place like that sure will gave up statistic like that, people there have been pressured with everything that had been surrounding them: profession, relationship, self esteem, neighborhood, its sure could trigger up someone rage, or even griefto a max, and would certainly lead to either suicidal or homicidal. And this article is what hassle me to put such title of Amore e Morte for this particular post, heheh, wandering what Amore e Morte means? I don’t understand Latin either (is Amore e Morte in Latin? I just assume it is), heheh, but I’ve read somewhere that it means Love and Death. For me, this quotation sure means a lot. We could never run away from this two, love and death, even if you try to, it will hunt you down and smack you flat to the ground, so I said, open your hand wide and embers it with your warm hug. Don’t try to end your life on your own, even if you desperately wanna be dead, let me do it for you, haha.
Lastly, I would wanna wish all the best to all who will be going through exam, study hard, all the best, and let it all out during exam, and so, happy birthday to anyone who will be celebrating it soon, Merry Christmas, Salam Aidil Adha, and all other happy2 thing, and I apologies once again to those I’ve hurt. Even so you wouldn’t wanna forgive me, just except my apologies. I don’t expect what I’ve done will lead to this, hmm, maybe I’m into suicidal tendencies eh? Haha, don’t worry me, its not happening…..hopefully, I’m gone. Amore e Morte.