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[WTS] Samsung Omnia II i8000

2011-12-06T17:35:00.005+08:00

Hi all,

Selling Samsung Omnia II i8000 on behalf of a friend.

2 unit available

Asking Price: RM 500 per unit, can still nego
Condition: Mint, women owner.

Contact:
Skype: elevenblackchildren
Phone: 0174607780, call, SMS or WhatsApp

Phone specs refer here. Thank you.

PS3 Games for Sale. [SOLD]

2011-06-13T08:52:00.001+08:00

SOLD

KL Streets

2010-11-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

A song by MaliQue, 2nd Verse of the Songs.

im breakin bread now with joe flizz in showbiz
(but)these hopeless singers makin rap slow biz
entertainment now is textin,vote like elections
with all due respect
i disagree with your selections
underserving overnight stars
these punchlines will leave you punkk with
overnight scars
industry victim fighting for the right course
re-write laws,a rebel yes without a slight pause
whatever happen to talent,skills and hardwork?
can do much.laugh,chill,start work
hit the streets,kl phat cap on in back alleys
politickin with OG's,toolies in the fat bellys
adversaries steady plottin because they fearful
say my raps are deeper now no longer cheerful
but still i give them an earful,its tearful
told my mother i hustle
and she said be careful

CBR 1000 for sale.

2010-10-28T16:29:00.003+08:00

Register Singapore 2006
With documents and grant
Legal ride in Malaysia
Road Tax valid until Sept 2011
Mileage 18k++
Color Black
Accident Free
Racing Tank
Slider
Custom Exhaust
Free Rain Suit worth RM150 - never used
looking at RM35k.
interested?
Skype, YM: elevenblackchildren
Email: elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com

Cuti dah Tamat (Aidilfitri 2010)

2010-09-19T22:05:00.001+08:00

1st skali, nk ucap dulu Salam Aidilfitri pada yg still sudi mengikut blog peribadi aku ni. Haha. Wow. Dah lama x ada entry, ni baru terhegeh nk karang satu. Huhu. Kali ni nk gebang pasal cuti, yessa, cuti, off duty, holiday, break. So Aidilfitri taun ni Alhamdulillah, dpt max 5 hari, cmpur tolak cuti umum, taun ni during Aidilfitri aku cuti 7 hari bekerja. Alhamdulillah, xdak mcm taun lepaih. Haha. Cuti mmg panjang, tp aku rasa cuti aku kali ni kosong. Huhu.

Kenapa kosong? Sebab ada kawan2 yg x cuti panjang plak. Aiya. Then ada kawan2 dan kazen2 yg taun ni dah start beraya ngan family sendiri (dah kahwin la tuh), so kurang sket masa ngan geng2, biasalah kan, dah ada pasangan, then ada pulak certain few, dah ada zuriat sendiri. Xkan still nk ikot style zaman bujang dak? Haha.

Lagi satu punca kosong, maybe sebab arwah Tok Timah dah xdak, dulu masa Tok Timah masih dirumah mak bapak aku, ramai lah org2 yg dtg melawat, so agak meriah umah Aloq Staq nun. Skang ni rutin dah terbalik, kami la pulak kena melawat sedara mara. Raya kedua dan ketiga taun ni aku di Langkawi, melawat saudara mara dekat dan jauh. Kazen2 yg rapat ngan aku dulu pon ramai dah berumahtangga, ada anak sendiri. Anak2 sedara pon dah makin ramai.

Di Aloq Staq plak, xdak apa yg menarik sgt, except bebudak taman pusing2 kutip duit raya, haha, itu biasa. Lain xdak, except dok p berjalan rumah kawan2 lama, diskusi kenangan hidup, smbil tenung2 masa depan. Aidilfitri kali ni jugak ramai kawan2 yg melangsungkan perkahwinan, ada yg bertunang, Alhamdulillah, doa2 so aku pon bleh cepat2 ikot jejak ampa weh. Hahaha.

Cuti panjang patut jadi mcm zaman student dulu, sekali cuti, sebulan dua bulan trus. Baru puas hati. Haha. Cuti smpai bosan nk cuti. Zaman bekerja ni paling max bleh dpt, aku rasa dlm 2 miggu ja. Nak lebih? Bukak kompeni sendri. Hahaha. Zaman bekerja ni mood cuti pon lain, eksaited nk cuti, tp x eksaited bila habih cuti, sebab apa? nun kerja bertimbun dok tunggu, haha, bukan mcm zaman U dulu, cuti maknanya akan start sem baru, sem baru, subjek baru, assignment baru. Cuti nk habeh pon sronok, sebab bleh jmpa kawan2 balik. Naseb baik hidup kita ni xdak something mcm reset button dlm game. x puas hati, RESET. Haha. Aku lah yg akan paling kerap guna reset button ni nanti.

So either way, walopon cuti agak kosong, tp aku rasa worth it, berbaloi, bukan senang nk dpt off and away daripada office nya workload. Kira Alhamdulillah la. Esok dah nk start keja, hopefully, by tomorrow, mood nk keja dah mai la, smpai saat aku mengarang ni, mood tuh belom ada. Hahaha. So selamat bertugas, and Salam Aidilfitri.

Sendirian

2010-06-11T07:22:00.000+08:00

“Okay, so, module kita untuk harini habis kat sini je” ayat lazim aku selepas aku mengakhiri setiap sesi kelas aku. Hari ini, macam sesi-sesi kebiasaan aku, aku gunakan lebih masa dari yang sepatutnya. Bukannya saja-saja aku buat mcm tu, untuk kebaikan mereka yang hadir juga. Hari ini, sesi aku tamat lebih sikit dari jam enam petang, tapi, bukannya balik lewat yang aku rungsingkan. Tadi, semasa dalam sesi aku, sikit selepas jam lima tiga puluh minit petang, berderu-deru panggilan telefon masuk. Tetapi, panggilan masuk, bukan pada telefon bimbitku, telefon-telefon mereka yang menghadiri kelas aku yang berderu-deru bersaing bunyi. Masing-masing ungkapkan ayat yang lebih kurang begini bunyinya “Kelas belum habis lagi lah, tunggulah kejap”.

Macam ayat aku di permulaan tadi, balik lewat bukan jadi rungsingan. Yang aku runsing ialah telefonku, tidak ada pun ia berlagu-lagu memanggil aku untuk menjawab panggilan. Aku berfikir sejenak, mungkin kerana telefon itu telah aku diamkan ia, seperti setiap sesi-sesi aku, aku pinta kepada mereka yang hadir untuk diamkan telefon-telefon mereka, tidak ada maksudlah jikalau aku pula tidak mendiamkan telefonku. Walaupun begitu, tidak pula telefonku menari-nari bergetaran, mengisyaratkan aku yang ada panggilan masuk. Aku berfikir lagi sejenak, mungkin ia ada bergetaran, tetapi tidak aku sedari kerana aku sedang berpusing memantau aktiviti didalam sesi aku. Lantas aku buka tutupan depan telefon bimbitku, aku tenung ke skrinnya, tiada pula apa-apa bentuk notifikasi yang menyatakan aku ada terlepas panggilan, mahupun aku ada mesej yang belum dibuka baca.

Lagi sejenak aku duduk berfikir, dan baru aku sedar, rupanya kehidupan aku ini, sangat sunyi. Apa-apaan yang aku lakukan, kebanyakan masanya, aku lalui sendiri. Bangun pagi, sendirian. Bertolak ke pekerjaan, sendirian. Makan pagi, makan tengahari, Alhamdulillah, ada rakan sepekerjaan yang sering menemani. Makan malam, sendirian. Atau kadang dengan kakak dan adikku. Malam, dirumah, melayan hiburan, juga sendirian. Bosan aku dengan sendirian lagi.

Sampai peringkat umur begini, aku dah mula terasa ingin nak berkongsi kehidupan, persoalannya, bersediakah aku?

Bersediakah aku nak berkongsi kehidupan? Dengan harapan orang yang aku kongsi hidup aku ini, bakal berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat.

Bersediakah aku nak dipertanggungjawabkan? Bila berkongsi kehidupan, aku sebagai kaum adam, akan dijadikan ketua, akan dipertanggungjawabkan didalam keluarga.

Aku ingin sangat, tetapi untuk dua soalan diatas, aku belum mampu beri jawapan Ya, sambil membidang dada. Oh, lemah.

Akan aku jadikan kau yang halal untuk aku, suatu hari nanti. InsyaAllah. Amin.

Setahun.

2010-06-01T09:14:00.002+08:00

Wow. pejam celik pejam celik. dah setahun aku dengan employer skang. huhu. cepat sungguh masa berlalu. sedar x sedar, byk jugak bunga dan duri yg kena tempuh dlm perjalanan ni.

apa2 pon. aku doakan yg terbaik kat semua. semoga benda2 negative x menimpa kita dan boleh kita elakkan semahunya. n harap jugak workload xde la byk mcm skang, penin palo den. n aku harap jugak gaji bleh naik. haha. mesti demand oo, Joker ckp, if youre good at something, don't do it for free. skang ni dah ura2 suma subsidi nk kena phased out, expenses sure akan bertambah2, n apalah salahnya aku mengharap dpt bayaran yang lebey baik. moga semua ni jadi kenyataan. amin.

Other side of the road.

2010-05-26T22:03:00.001+08:00

Sumpah dulu aku x pernah pikir benda2 mcm ni. Skang ni, perasaan ni dah membuak2. adakah kerna tekanan dari sekeliling? Atau naluri aku sendiri? Or apa org slalu ckp, dah smpai seru? Aha.

Apa benda ni yg merunsingkan aku? Bendanya ialah jodoh. Hoho. Ramai rakan2 sepejabat, rakan2 sekolah, rakan2 uni, dah nk mendirikan rumahtangga, aku ni masih terkebil2 lg tanpa arah tuju. Target ada, tp mcm jauh nk dicapai. Haha.

Haih, ntah la. Jmpa kawan2 lama, ada yg dah bwk anak kecik, ada yg tgh ondeway, adui. Bertambah2 panjang lg aku dok pikir. Bila plak aku nk kawen? Huhu.

Seriously, aku terasa macam nk melintas sgt to the other side of the road. Of kos dengan berpimpin tangan. Amin.

Seized.

2010-05-12T09:26:00.001+08:00

So, the shooter cop was convicted and sentenced to 10 years with 10K bail. I hope most of the public are happy now, since most of us were angry at the shooter cop. but my question, why only one were convicted? as far as what I'm reading, there were a team of five cops that involved in the shooting incidents, what happens to the other four? is the convicted just another scapegoat to make the public go easy.

for me still, too many things were not disclosed. too many loose ends in this cop drama. for example, how many bullets were really discharged. on paper, it says it was 15, on press conference, it says only 5. and there are too many conflicting story in this drama. and it became a national political issue. and that supposed to be witness boy, said he was beaten by five cops, and still manage to run away? I don't buy this, either he ran before the coppers got there, or the coppers let him go. I have no doubt that from here on, the crime rate will spike through the roof, because police are now being monitored and judged by the public. its fucked up. 100%.
if the shooter was really guilty, and is rightfully accused, then good for us that he will be away. and if this the case, he should just be stripped from his badge. my big question, what if, he was not guilty, and we're sentencing a wrongly accused cop, who was just trying to maintain the order of the public safety.

I really don't know what to believe anymore. i personally think that the real truth will be shoved in the drain. my concern is, don't politicize a matter on public safety, or we will see more and more people to drop dead on the street, be it by the authorities, or even criminals, like certain big city in a big country that we all know about.

Political incorrect

2010-05-08T14:17:00.000+08:00

Feels like writing bout that shooting incidents at Shah Alam, that incidentally killed a minor. My condolences to the individual and family involved in this tragic incident, but hey, that’s life man, shits are bound to happen.

1st off all, let me clarify a few things, I know my writings here would definitely hurts many feeling, in whichever their standing point of view is. I would like to apologize in advance as well to those that would get offended by my view on what had happened. Also please bear in mind that Im not taking on any sides, and Im not trying to judge, Im just stating my mind in these form of words.

Ok, lets look back to what had happened (as being reported by numerous papers in this country, I only take the similar story into accounts). The kid, who was in his 15th, went out, 2 am in the morning, driving a car, which is owned by his sister, without the owner permission or consent. If you asked me, he was way past his bedtime, even if he was looking for entertainment, why not try what other kid does? Watch TV, play video games, browse the net? No, he just had to ‘take’ his sister car and stroll around at nighttime with fellow friends. This is clearly a gangbangers behavior, who know what they were doing out at that time. Maybe they have sick thought on their minds at that time, I doubt they were out at 2 am in the morning just to discuss Geography for PMR, I clearly went against that.

And unfortunately, that night, they had an accidents, they bump into a luxury cars, and seeing people came, they panicked, and took off. Then a GTA scene occurs, they took off in the car, running away from their pursuers, only to had a legitimate pursuer to join pursuit. Yes, you guess right, cops came by. If it was me, Ill panicked to, Im 15, got no driving license, practically steals a car form its rightful owner, and bump into a luxury car. But, continue running from cops is a very bad idea. If you did just that, that already made you a felon, for not abiding to the instructions from cop.

Ok, from this point after the pursuits, the stories varies from one papers to another, I don’t even know which is right and which to believe. Evidently, this kids got shot at by the cops, and one of the catch a bullets and die. So public was screaming out, police should not shot a minor, yes I would agree to that as well. But, if I am a cop, and a minors appears threatening to public and my own life, I would take him down using whatever method possible, and yes that include shooting them. You see, public are making a huge uproar for shooting at a minor, from the cops point of view, they appears to be criminals, and were a threat to public safety as well as themselves of course. I would blame the cops only if he still shot at point blank even after the kids stop the car.

And last few days they bring in the fellow victim friend for questioning, as a witness. What? Witness? He was in the car during the incidents, when the shooting occurs, and car forcefully stopped, he continue running away on foot, straight away to his home, and not telling anybody of what’s happened. He must try to hide something. How is he a reliable witness? As far as I’m seeing things, he is one of the accomplished criminal.
Another thing, the kid parents and rightful guardian, why would you let him went out, driving a car, 2am in the morning? If you said that he went out on his own, that’s proves another thing, he’s slick. Yes you cant control 100% what he does, but at least, get to know who he hang out with, where he hang out at, those trivial things may help you to know him better. I believe bad parenting is contributing into the incidents as well. Can’t blame the parents 100% though, its not easy controlling a rebellious son. Believe me, I know, I was one. Ill find every possible angle to lie to my parents.

Public might say, its easy for me to say, it doesn’t happened to me, what if it was my family members who got shot. Well, my answer would be something like this, if he’s my family members, I wont let him went out at night, driving a car. And for those who would be whining on how it does not happen to me, just think about it like this, what if, a kid, underage, broke into your house, take your car key, drive your car around at night, and the got shot in the back by cops? I know most of you would say he deserved it, caused he’s a criminal. What if, that was his first crime? Does he deserved it? I know it would be terrible for these things to happened to one of my family members, but if he is a criminal, I wont blame the cop, I hate him yes, but I wont blame him. He doing his job.

Before Im done with this, I’ve been made to understand that this kid mother is high up in political business, is this even true? If I is, man, this cased is nothing more than a ruse against police authorities. Don’t came running to the cops if you got stab in the neck or your purse was snatch by Mat Rempit, cause they all are someone sons too. Goddamn. I hate it when you abuse your power just to try and save face. and, if that boy was a son to those who just a rubber tapper, Im sure this case will be done in a jiffy, with conclusion that this boy commit crime, and Im this politically-high-post mother would back the conclusion of the case. Dismissed.

Reflects

2010-04-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

Does working with a huge organization really promotes jealousy, hatred, basically anything that have to do with emotional sensitivities issue?

Ive heard that its all politics. I never believe it. But now Im seeing it.

Ive heard that its all bout ass kissing. I never beLIEve it. But now Im seeing it.

Ive also heard that its all bout team efforts. I always beLIEve in it, but Ive never seen it. everyones seems to be pointing away from themselves though.

I guess it really does reflects the real life. heh. ONE.

Manusia Biasa

2010-04-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

Aku bukan Tuhan, yang menguasai sekalian alam.
Aku bukan Malaikat, yang mentaati pesuruhnya.
Aku bukan Raja, yang punya darjat dan harta.
Aku bukan Pendita, yang penuh ilmuan didada.
Aku bukan Panglima, yang berani menempuh bala.

Aku cuma manusia biasa,
Yang bertutur tidak berperibahasa,
Yang berfikir kadang luar warasnya,
Yang tingkahlaku kadang tidak terjaga,
Yang tanggungjawab kadang terlalai dan leka,

Aku cuma manusia biasa,
Yang ingin dikawali tuturkatanya,
Yang ingin dipimpim pemikirannya,
Yang ingin dipantau tingkahlakunya,
Yang ingin diingatkan tanggungjawabnya,
Yang ingin diterima kekurangannya.

Aku cuma manusia biasa,
Yang inginkan kau, menemaniku mendekati syurga.
Amin.

need a 'effin' break

2010-03-10T10:53:00.003+08:00

these are the current list of movies that I wanna watch, or watch again.
how though to get all these at one time?

the list seems to be growing, hmm, I even get ahold of some of it already, but the list still grow,

Iron Man2
~~Avatar~~
~~Blindside~~
~~Hurt Locker~~
~~District 9~~
Up in the air
The Messenger
~~Percy Jackson & the Olympians: The Lightning Thief~~
~~Cop Out~~
~~Shutter Island~~
~~Brooklyn's Finest~~
The Wolfman
~~Tooth Fairy~~
From Paris with Love
~~Law Abiding Citizen~~
~~Whip It~~
The Invention of Lying
Whiteout
Pandorum
~~The Hangover~~
Paranormal Activity
All About Steve
The Brothers Bloom
I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell
Extract
~~Funny People~~
~~Zombieland~~
The Crazies
~~Book of Eli~~
Edge of Darkness
500 Days of Summer
New Moon
~~When in Rome~~
Ajami
Art of the Steal
Somers Town
~~Star Trek~~
Chop Shop
Man Push Cart
Drag Me To Hell
Tokyo Sonata
Sin Nombre
A Serious Man
World's Greatest Dad
Trick 'r Treat
Bad Lieutenant: Port of Call New Orleans
Taxi to the Dark Side
The Wrestler
~~The Losers~~
Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
~~Kick-Ass~~
Date Night
The Good, The Bad, The Weird
Daybreakers
~~The Bounty Hunter~~
~~Repo Men~~
~~Diary of a Wimpy Kid~~
~~She's Out of My League~~
~~Hot Tub Time Machine~~
~~The Expendables~~
~~Salt~~
Peacock
Inception
Smart People
Mouth to Mouth
Holy Rollers
Super 8
Despicable Me
Toy Story 3
~~Grown Ups~~
The Sorcerer's Apprentice
Eclipse
Dinner for Schmucks
The Last Airbender
Predators (2010)
Knight & Day
The Girl Who Played with Fire (Flickan som lekte med elden) (2009)
Winter's Bone
~~The A-Team~~
Killers
The Kids Are All Right
The Karate Kid (2010)
Cyrus
Ramona and Beezus
Get Him to the Greek
Countdown to Zero
Get Low
Robin Hood
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (Män som hatar kvinnor) (2009)
Please Give
Once Upon a Time in Mumbai
The Dry Land
The Extra Man
Solitary Man (2009)
Trash Humpers (2010)
Just Wright
How to Train Your Dragon
Just Add Water (2008)
Strange Wilderness (2008)
The Other Guys
Let The Right One In (2008)
Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps

15 Ramadhan 2012

2010-03-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

Just nk kongsi ngan kawan2.

[ Cuba kira... 1Ramadan pada tahun 2012 jatuh pada 20 july hari jumaat,jadi 3 august 2012 bersamaan 15 ramadan jatuh juga hari jumaat.Sama dengan hadis nabi pasai huru hara besar yang akan jadi pada tengah malam pertengahan bulan ramadan iaitu hari jumaat 15 ramadan
dekat bumi ni yang akan mengejutkan semua orang yang sedang tidur, pasai satu suara yang amat dahsyat akan kita dengar dekat langit,bukan kiamat tapi huru hara tersebut akan melenyapkan umat manusia di atas muka bumi ini sebanyak 2/3,yang tinggal cuma 1/3 shj.(yang NASA Amerika dok bagitau pada 21-12-2012 planet X akan lintas mai kat bumi ni)Adakah kita semua ni tergolong dalam 1/3 tu.......ALLAH sahaja maha mengetahui.. ......... ..cuba kita tengok hadis nabi kat bawah ni dan kenyataan pasal calender islam 2012 dan klik kat home page bawah ni untuk maklumat lanjut...

Nu'aim bin Hammad meriwayatkan dengan sanadnya bahwa Rasulullah saw. bersabda:
Bila telah muncul suara di bulan Ramadhan, maka akan terjadi huru-hara di bulan Syawwal....". Kami bertanya: "Suara apakah, ya Rasulullah?" Beliau menjawab: "Suara keras di pertengahan bulan Ramadhan, pada malam Jum'at, akan muncul suara keras yang membangunkan orang tidur, menjadikan orang yang berdiri jatuh terduduk, para gadis keluar dari pingitannya, pada malam Jum'at di tahun terjadinya banyak gempa. Jika kalian telah melaksanakan shalat Subuh pada hari Jum'at, masuklah kalian ke dalam rumah kalian, tutuplah pintu-pintunya, sumbatlah lubang-lubangnya, dan selimutilah diri kalian, sumbatlah telinga kalian. Jika kalian merasakan adanya suara menggelegar, maka bersujudlah kalian kepada Allah dan ucapkanlah: "Mahasuci Al-Quddus, Mahasuci Al-Quddus, Rabb kami Al-Quddus!", karena barangsiapa melakukan hal itu akan selamat, tetapi barangsiapa yang tidak melakukan hal itu akan binasa". ]

Perlu Kamu

2010-02-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

Pry me from the preying hand of a predator.
Sucking on my blood dry.

CONSENT

2009-12-16T12:18:00.000+08:00

18 Dec is public holiday rite? But I have to work. I HAVE to, not WANT to. Huugeeeeeeeeee difference. Lets break into conversation of what WILL happen. DAMNATION.

Them: You, you cool rite working this Friday?

Me: Yeah, its no big deal. Im not married, no girlfriend, parents were far away, its only my cousin getting married, not me. So yeah, Im cool working on public holiday. Make me work.

Them: You sure? You sounded upset.

Me: Me? Upset? What do you think? It’s a holiday man. Why don’t we work on Christmas as well? How bout that? Why not we work on New Year as well? Sure it’s fun then. Also, I would love to work on CNY holiday, that’ll be great. Better yet, why don’t we work, every second we were awake? Brilliant huh?

Really, I hope I have the guts to strike this kind of conversation with these people. WTF are they thinking, try to turn it off man. You work yourself like a milkcow, then in the end, you not enjoying your life. I dunno bout these people, but I don’t enjoy working on other people consent. Meaning? Aku x suka buat kerja org lain. I NEED A FUCKING BREAK, not a tea break, A HOLIDAY BREAK. Damn.

awak.

2009-10-11T17:22:00.007+08:00

Suatu petang, tengah seronok melayan perasaan, tiba2 aku didatangi oleh msg2 peribadi dari perisian chatting facebook. sila ikuti episod pertelingkahan antara kami, aku siarkan bukan bertujuan nk mengaibkan, bukan betujuan nk tentukan menang kalah, cuma aku rasa punca pertelingkahan agak remeh dan aku langsung x berpeluang untuk mempertahankan diri.

awak. kalau awak baca ni, bacalah smpai habis, apis harap warkah kali ni dapat melegakan kemarahan awak. apis harap jugak warkah kali ini dapat selesaikan episod pertelingkahan dalam drama perhubungan kita. saya harap awak baca smpai habis. warkah kali ini ditujukan khas untuk awak. anggaplah warkah ni medium apis meminta maaf dengan awak secara tidak langsung. apis x pernah berharap hubungan kita tamat dengan episod macam ni.

xxx:awat yg smbng
xxx msge pn x blas
msge mntak tlng pun x blas

aku:hu?

xxx:apa ni

aku:bila xxx msg?
simcard ni problem skit

xxx:tnya pula
kita msge dia wat bodo
ja
kan
msalah la kalau orng mcm ni

aku:slalu jadi inactive simvcard
x mau percaya sudah

xxx:x payah bg alasan ckp ja xmau tlng
muka xxx ni muka mntak tlng
jd x payah la blas
kan

aku:ikut suka la nk kata apa

xxx:kawan knon

aku:apis x tipu pn

xxx:tau la dah x mau tolong xxx
k x pa
xxx ingat

aku:hmm

xxx:tau la muka ni ja mntak tlong
tu yang lagsung x masge
kan
kan

aku:apis xdpt pn msg xxx
penah ka apis saja2 x reply?

xxx:itu apis ja ynag tau
kejujuran apis nak blas how
smua tu apis ja tau

aku:ok, so xxx x percaya apis x dpt sms xxx?

xxx: xkan tak dapt
mana nak caya kalu xxx msge then delivry msge afda
ada
dah msge yg dhantar dah deliver
how?

aku:tu la apis ckp, simcard ni problem
xkan apis saja2 x reply

xxx:ahh
dal la
wasalam

aku:hmm

xxx:xxx mnyessal *mntak tlg* dkt apis

aku:kenapa?
sebab skang xxx x percaya kt apis dah?
mcm tuh?
sebab apis x reply msg xxx?
sebab apis tipu ckp apis x dpt msg xxx?

xxx:ya
maaf la kalu xxx mnggu hidup apis selama ni
lepas ni xkan ganggu lagi
xkan cr lagi
*omitted*

aku:xxx, apis penah ka kata xxx kacau idup apis?
*omitted*
?

xxx:x pa
x pa la
x pnah kata tp mngkin ya
kan
k
wasalam

aku:hmm.

xxx:tolong delete num xxx
k
*omited*

aku:xxx, apis x suka la gaduh2 ni, ada problem bgtau
pasal sms xxx tuh, apis mmg x dapat
apis x tipu pn

xxx:xxx muka msalah ka
dah la
xxx rasa xxx ja yg duk msge apis
x pa la
wasalam

aku:xxx is no longer online. The following was not sent:
hmm. xxx igt, kalo xx x bukakan pntu, org x bleh masuk rumah, ok? (send as a message)

so, episod pertelingkahan kami terhenti setakat itu. aku tatau apa nk buat

Warkah untuk awak.

Awak.
Awak cakap awak yang selalu hubungi saya,
tp xkan awak lupa apa yg jadikan semua ini mungkin.

Awak.
Kita x pernah bertentang mata walaupon kita 2 tahun berkongsi kelas.
tp Alhamdulillah, selepas tamat zaman persekolahan, awak ada hadir ke majlis perjumpaan rakan2 sekelas.
dan kita lebih mengenali satu sama lain sejak dari itu.

Awak.
kita x pernah bertutur secara langsung walaupon 2 tahun kita mengikuti pelajaran yang sama.
tp Alhamdulillah, dunia cyber telah merapatkan jurang antara kita.
selalu kita bertemu di dunia cyber dan saling berkongsi perasaan dan pendapat.

Awak.
saya jarang dengar suara awak walaupon 2 tahun awak duduk dihadapan kelas, dan saya dibelakang.
tp Alhamdulillah, teknologi komunikasi telah mendekatkan suara awak kepada saya.
kadang kita bebual di telefon, seronok bercerita tentang episod kehidupan.

Awak.
x pernah kita berutus surat, walaupun bertahun kita duduk di bandar yang sama.
tp Alhamdulillah, sms menjadi pengganti.
selalu kita berganti sms, yg mencoret kisah suka dan duka kita.

Tapi awak.
kadang saya lewat atau terlupa membalas sms awak. bukan semua nya adalah kelalaian diri ini. kadang ada masalah dengan alat komunikasi, kadang mgkin saya sedang sibuk dengan tugasan diberi, kadang mungkin saya sedang merehatkan diri. saya harap, perkara2 begini x menjadi benteng dalam kita terus berhubung.

Awak.
Saya x pernah berharap perhubungan kita tamat mcm ni.
Saya minta maaf kalau ayat2 saya mengguris hati awak.
Saya minta maaf kalau perilaku saya mengecewakan awak.
Saya minta maaf kalau tabiat saya menyakitkan awak.

Awak.
Warkah ini khas dari saya untuk awak.

Tumini

2009-09-25T07:26:00.002+08:00

"Maaf tak sopan.
Saya tak tau nak panggil apa sama kamu. boleh tak saye minta tolong. saye disini hampir 2bln. tapi toke saye tak bagi saye bagi kabar same keluarga saye. saya tau kamu org baik, jika bisa tolong bls surat ini ya? oya! macemana pulang kampung. sanang tak!
mane kase?nya dari kampung? masa saye tak dibagi. selamat hari IdulFitri ya!
maaf saye hanya bisa cakap lewat-kertas ini. sebab saye takut same toke saye?

saye minta tolong same kamu?
balas ya?

sekali lagi saye minta maaf - sebab tak sopan.

saye tunggu pukul 5.20. sebab pukul 5.20 saye cuci kereta di depan?

Trimakasih.
dari Tumini.
orang gaji"

umm, aku terlibat dalam sesuatu yang sepatutnya aku terlibat? apa patut aku buat? demit. aku balik lewat la arini.

Isu Amah tempatan gaji murah

2009-06-30T13:22:00.002+08:00

terbaca satu artikel dalam tabloid tempatan kita yg mengatakan rakyat tempatan bukan x mahu menjadi amah, tp gaji yg diberi terlalu murah, oh, gaji murah dijadikan alasan pulak? ya, kita amek org luar jadi amah kerana bayaran yg agak murah, tp bg aku, bayaran itu berpatutan untuk mereka yg berstatus amah.

Amah, salah satu kerja yg x memerlukan skill mahupun pendidikan yg tinggi, semua org berkebolehan menjadi amah, jadi, kalo mereka berpendidikan tinggi dan mempunyai skill yg tinggi, cari kerja lain, jgn expect nk kerja amah, boleh layan tgk TV, lepas tuh draw gaji mcm Profesional. oh no. that wont happen. nk amah gaji tinggi? kerja ngan majikan yg rumah dia 50k kaki persegi, nah, jenuh korg nk sapu sampah, mop lantai seorg diri

Masalah ngan org tempatan kita ni, terlalu mengangkat diri sendiri, ia bagus kalo ko berkelayakan, tp slalunya benda ni terbalik kut, ini berdasarkan pandangan mata saya sendiri, seorg storekeeper, berpendidikan x smpai SPM pn, PMR yg zaman dulu, org pggel apa? lupa lah, ha, dulu kerja angkat barang kt harbour, usia dah meningkat tua, xkan nk keja angkat barang lg kan? org bg peluang dia jadi storekeeper, bayaran mmg agak kecil kalo nk dibanding dengan gaji profesional, tp itu pn bayaran dia dah agak mewah kalo nk dibanding dengan bayaran untuk pekerja2 bukan tempatan. tp still dia x puas hati kerana budak yg baru masuk, gajinya lebih tinggi dari gaji dia. tp budak baru tuh berkelulusan Ijazah bidang Akaunting, jganlah nk dibanding2 gaji kau dengan dia, skop kerja masing2 pn lain2, tanggungjwb pn lain2, skang si dia nih dah berenti kerja, dan kerja apa skarang? jadi tourist guide, ada tourist, adalah duit, tourist xdak, mulalah menagih kt org lain, kan elok kalo dia tetap kerja kt tempat lama, stay lama skit, mgkin org bleh naikkan bayaran kau tuh.

kadang2 aku pelik ngan pemikiran korg ni, mmg org suruh berpikiran terbuka, tp bukan maksudnya buka untuk dibanding2 itu dan ini, terbuka untuk korg analisis, tp kalo korg sendiri matematik menengah rendah pn gagal, aku x expect byk dari korang, hah.

so, amah gaji rendah x patut dijadikan isu, mereka yg dtg menagih kerja di malaysia ni kdg2 bukannya berpendidikan pn, sebab tuh jadi amah, jadi kontraktor, kerja hard labour, diorg dibayar untuk masa dan tenaga yg diorg guna untuk majikan, kena paham, sebab tuh diorg digajikan mcm tuh, org kita, kalo kerja mcm tuh jugak, kenapa nk dimestikan digaji lebih kalo kerja yg dibuat tuh sama? skang kita byk lihat kerja2 remeh byk dimonopoli oleh pendatang2 luar, kerana mereka masuk Malaysia untuk mencari nafkah, dan mereka x berpendidikan, setakat tu sajalah org boleh bg. even ada yg dibayar lebih murah daripada pekerja tempatan kerana mereka snggup dibayar mcm tuh, dan sudah tentu majikan akan seronok membayar gaji yg lebih murah untuk skop kerja yg sama, cost effective, betol? saya percaya anda semua bukan bodoh sangat untuk berfikir, so x payah jadikan benda ni isu, sgt remeh, kalo anda rasa skill atau pengetahuan anda memerlukan bayaran yg lebih, JGN JADI AMAH.

sekian.

MJ

2009-06-29T16:55:00.001+08:00

uhm, so MJ died, whole world were brought down to their knees, what was the cause of death again?

Induksi 2

2009-06-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

hari 2...
introduction to TM...
Penyampai, Encik Zainal, pandai interaksi dengan peserta kursus..
pandai bagi contoh2 rujukan secara terus...
agak puas hati dengan input2 dari Encik Zainal harini..

umm, esok ice breaking pulak,

2 days and counting..

hari kedua, plaintif utama.. MENDENGAR.

apa pulak lepas ni?

Induksi

2009-06-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

hari pertama...

Tempat asal yg dijanji... x kesampaian...
antar tmpat baru.... sangat membosankan...
jadual plaintif ada... x ditunaikan...
tmbah plak ngan gaji yg belom klear... hangat hati..
emosi skang amat x stabil... morale nk dtg induksi dah hilang...
harap lepas mlm ni... morale baru dtg timbul..

demit... 19 hari mcm ni? mampukah aku? demit

1 day and counting,

hari pertama... plaintif utama... MENUNGGU

apa pulak lepas ni?

Batang

2009-05-25T15:37:00.001+08:00

Mohd Hafiz: pasal diskusi kecilan td, mood aku suma diorg tembak mati
A : oh..hoho
Mohd Hafiz: skang ni bergerak 3% je
Mohd Hafiz: :D
Mohd Hafiz: td ade le 7
Mohd Hafiz: mai esok tggl 1 je kot
Mohd Hafiz: lusa 0
A : oh..hoho
A : apa ko nak buat bila da 0
Mohd Hafiz: aku layan lagu, browsing intenet, download porno
A : hoho
A : daymn..keji siot. porno tuh
Mohd Hafiz: :D
Mohd Hafiz: aku org bujang
Mohd Hafiz: ko lani
Mohd Hafiz: lani
Mohd Hafiz: lain
A : lain apanya.. bujang la gak
Mohd Hafiz: tp ada gf
A : hoho
A : takder bezanya.. sama gak bujang. dok main btg sendiri gak
Mohd Hafiz:
Mohd Hafiz: cool line, aku buat status
A : jgn ko
Mohd Hafiz: letak lam bloq ah
Mohd Hafiz: lg best
: xkesian kat aku ke
Mohd Hafiz: anom
Mohd Hafiz: jgn risau
Mohd Hafiz: x kompromi status ko punya
Mohd Hafiz: kekeke
Mohd Hafiz: tgh buat ni
Mohd Hafiz: nanti tgk
Mohd Hafiz: 4 menet
A : daymn

Sayang Ibu?

2009-05-21T16:41:00.003+08:00

aku dok baca coretan surat 'sayang ibu' yg telah byk tersebar diruang internet, sila klik sini untuk menghayatinya, aku pn tersentuh ngan coretan ni, tp aku takut aku x mampu nk rasa emosi ni bila masa betul2 smpai, aku dah alami, tp bukan dgn keluarga dekat, tp still, aku takut,

A: mampu ke aku capai tahap emosi mcm ni bila smpai masa
A: aku risau
A: pasal selama ni kalo ada kematian, aku x rasa apa2
A: pak su aku, aku x rasa apa
A: tok lang, x rasa apa
A: tok njang, x rasa apa
A: uncle maon, lg la x rasa apa, aku smpai lupa rupa dia pn
A: huhu
A: dem

Forgot

2009-04-10T18:59:00.000+08:00

Rite now my mood was crushed, I was happy and cherishing my ‘work-free’ time, I was browsing the internet looking at games and movie trailers, but that one single fact had devastated my whole week, or it even seem my whole doings. Shit. It makes me realize where I was being placed, and I couldn’t say that I like the fact that much. What am I? Huh? Ughh, I hate it to the point that I’m regretting things that I’ve done. Help me please. Help me. All this feelings turn into rage, all this love turns into hate. I never wish this to be the end, but now, its seamless, can’t turn back again now. Can I?

People around me keep saying that I need professional help, but I don’t beLIEve in that kind of things, all I need is a shoulder to lean on.

How I wish I’m dead rite now. Kill me, the maybe all this will end. Maybe. KILL ME. NOW.

-END-

She's a maniac, maniac, I sure know, and she's dancing like she never danced before -Firewind : Maniac-

TUT!!!!!

2009-04-10T14:54:00.002+08:00

"tatut la tucing tu, x tomey"

yeah, sama mcm ang, x comey, pakai ayat tuh konon2 comey la? x comey aih, terencat ada, hoh.

You Ain't

2009-04-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

This entry was inspired by Chris Rock, well, most of the words are his, I just love this guy, and he speaks the truth. And, no offense ladies, this entry is just a joke, al least we could keep on pondering why eh? Heheh.

Who is the worst liar?
Men lies bout things like, “I’m at me friend’s house”
Women lies bout things like, “He’s YOUR baby”

Who lies a lot? Men or women? Let’s go through this together.
Women wore high heels, you ain’t that tall
Women wore make-up, your face ain’t that white
Women wore color contact-lenses, your eyes ain’t that blue
Women wore wonder-bra, your boobs ain’t that big
Women do wax, your body ain’t that hairless
Women wore tight dress, you ain’t that skinny
Women did hair-do, your hair ain’t that curly blond
Women do manicure and pedicure, your nails ain’t that shiny

Men shave facial hair, because corporate world don’t allow keeping them.
If they do allow, man, there will be Guru Pitka all over the place. Haha, sad sight ain’t it?

Lappy Letgo

2009-03-30T20:06:00.007+08:00

Wanna let go of my beloved laptop, had served me for almost 4 Years now. note that Im a heavy user, I use my laptop A LOT, for practically almost everything, study, entertainment, and also work.

I wanna let go for a high price, but um, its pretty much bang up already, huhu,
so I ask for only ~~RM900~~ RM400. I bought it for RM5600. take it or leave it.

Interested buyer can contact me on cellphone, SMS anytime of the day, call only after office hour please. Or mail me, or YM me. Thank you.

Cellphone: 017 460 7780

Email n YM: elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com

Folks, do spread the word out. Thank you.

Here's the specs

*Acer Aspire 5590
*Intel Core 2 Duo processor T5600 (1.83GHz, 667Mhz FSB, 2MB L2 cache)
*14.1" WXGA CrystalBryte LCD
*ATI Mobility Radeon X1600 up to 512MB HyperMemory
*120 GB HDD
*Slot load DVD Super Multi Double Layer (already not working)
*1GB DDR2 (support dual-channel)
*802.11a/b/g wireless LAN
*Bluetooth 2.0 + EDR (the switch already broken)
*1.3megapixel framemounted webcam (225 degree horizontal rotation)
*Gigabit (1000Base) Ethernet port
*RJ11 female jack (for modem dial-up)
*3 USB port
*Card reader (flash memory)
*1 PCI Express slot
*1 PCMCIA slot
*1 InfraRed port
*1 S-Video output
*1 Firewire mini port
*1 VGA port

Package includes: One Laptop, One power cord. I could thrown in the laptop bag if I could find it. huhu.

Specs

Disk Capacity, ignore the white out part, that was my external HDD, not included in the package.

The initial look, pretty neat huh? :P

Keyboard

Zoom out a bit, this is what you'll be looking at. well, most of the time. :D

CrystalBrite LCD, yess, you can also use it as a mirror. Notice the webcam on top there?

Bluetooth switch missing, wireless LAN switch, InfraRed port, umm, notice the crack there? I used to tape it though. other than that, its still ok.

Card Reader slot, audio jack

Sideview, notice the 3 USB, mini FireWire, RJ11, Ethernet, and S-video

Heatsink Grill, RJ11 female jack, Ethernet port

erm, the 'tooth' all gone missing already, huhu

Notice the crack on the upper right corner of the ethernet port? this won't hold your RJ45 clip anymore, but its still functioning though, and hey, who need cable now rite? :P

PCIE and PCMCIA slot

Slot in DVD Drive, not working, I think its the power though, I don't bother repairing, never need to use any disk. huhu

VGA output

Underbelly

Fair? Usage policy?

2009-03-30T18:04:00.002+08:00

Aku tgh mencari service broadband yg dpt memenuhi kehendak dan memuaskan nafsu penggunaan internet aku, currently aku guna Celcom broadband service. Coverage, puas, speed, puas, usage policy, x puas. Apa ni usage policy? Capacity yg dibenarkan untuk kita guna dalam sebulan. Aik, kata unlimited broadband? Unlimited apa kalo ada usage policy.

tiga2 major player dlm Mobile Broadband industry kita dah apply usage policy, nicee…, yg paling best, mulanya Digi nk truncate dia punya usage policy untuk servis yg rm128, aku dah mula consider yg ni, tambah 30, bang, UNLIMITED. Tp harapan aku hancur, Digi pn dah apply usage policy, cuma capacity dah ditambah, sedih beb, tgk lah sendiri, 20 gig capped, untuk 198? Oh nono, not for me, huhu

Maxis pn aku ada consider, tp 3 gig capped, apa kes? Lg kemut dari Celcom, 3 gig ni apply untuk suma servis ke?

I quote
“Excessive Usage
5.3.1 Each customer’s total usage per month shall NOT exceed 3GB of data volume transmitted (total upload and download usage). This is to ensure that no individual hogs the bandwidth at all times.
5.3.2 Maxis reserves the right to reject the said application or charge for any additional data volume transmitted from what is already allocated.”

Hoho, wtf?

Actually, bg aku, Fair policy ni untuk benefit service provider je, aku bg contoh simple

Maximum bandwidth, 10 meg, 1 user 2 meg, so skang bapa user bleh masuk untuk 10 meg? Ya, 5 user dgn seorg 2 meg, User A,B,C,D,E . So user A dan B, byk pakai tenet, download and game, cukup capacity, diorg capped dia, tggl 1meg, contoh. So balance dlm bandwidth td ada berapa? Ya, 2 meg lagi, sorg ditolak 1 meg, cukup untuk lg seorg user, kan? Masuk lah lg User F, so skang untuk 10 meg bandwidth capacity yg sepatutnya untuk 5 user (seorg 2 meg) skang jadi 6 user untuk 10 meg bandwidth. Heheh. Kalo semua user A, B, C, D, E kena capped (1 meg seorg, jmlh 5 meg) diorg buleh make double the money with the same effort. Fair? NOT.

Also notice yg diorg buat ni based on cycle, maknanya, bandwitdth allocation tuh would never be that congested with that many user. Lagi contoh, sambungan dari contoh awal td, bulan pertama, A, B, C, D,E kena capped, free 5 meg kan? (sorg minus 1 meg), F, G, H, I, J dpt the rest of free capacity, bulan seterusnya, F,G,H,I,J plak kena capped, A,B,C,D,E plak dpt the rest of free bandwidth, convenient eh? Mmg keadaan x convenient mcm contoh yg aku bg, tp ini contoh, it does happens.

Ada apa2 lg yg ISP yg buleh aku consider? mobile only please. kalo bukan karena aku perlu mobile aku dah lama apply Streamyx, hah.

awak, lawak

2009-03-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

Mohd Hafiz: laptop dia 1899 baru
Mohd Hafiz: dia nk jual 1500
Mohd Hafiz: aku tgh consider ni
Mohd Hafiz: hoho
dean a: ic.
dean a: laptop ko laa ni da season?
Mohd Hafiz: season?
Mohd Hafiz: dah mati
Mohd Hafiz:
Mohd Hafiz: nak mati
dean a: oh..mmg kena beli laptop baru
Mohd Hafiz: aku heavy user
Mohd Hafiz: cd aku dah cabot, blutooth ko tau kan dah patah?
Mohd Hafiz: :D
Mohd Hafiz: slalu overheat
Mohd Hafiz: lain2 ok lg la
Mohd Hafiz: nanti aku pos kt blog aku
Mohd Hafiz: nk jual
Mohd Hafiz: :D
dean a: ahakz.. ko rasa ada tak yg nak beli
Mohd Hafiz: haha
Mohd Hafiz: ntah la
Mohd Hafiz: tp kena ada yg baru baru bleh jual yg ni
Mohd Hafiz: kalo xdak, parah ah
Mohd Hafiz: cmna nk fucntion
dean a: ahakz.. tepaksa la awak loan duit ayah
dean a: ah.. daymn.. ko*
Mohd Hafiz: =))
dean a: mcm mana terguna awak plak
Mohd Hafiz: adeh
Mohd Hafiz: semput aku gelak
Mohd Hafiz: demit

Ibuku dan Pasanganku

2009-02-10T09:14:00.002+08:00

Orang kata aku lahir dari perut ibu..
Bila dahaga, yang susukan aku.. Ibu
Bila lapar, yang suapkan aku.. Ibu
Bila keseorangan, yang sentiasa di sampingku.. Ibu
Kata ibu, perkataan pertama yang aku sebut.. Ma!
Bila bangun tidur, aku cari.. Ibu
Bila nangis, orang pertama yang datang ....Ibu
Bila nak bermanja.. Aku dekati ibu
Bila nak bergesel? Aku duduk sebelah ibu
Bila sedih, yang boleh memujukku hanya ibu
Bila nakal, yang memarahi aku ? Ibu
Bila merajuk? yang memujukku cuma.. Ibu
Bila melakukan kesalahan? Ibu juga lah yang paling cepat marah..
Bila takut? Yang tenangkan aku.. Ibu
Bila nak peluk? Yang aku suka peluk.. Ibu
Aku selalu teringatkan .. Ibu
Bila sedih, aku mesti telefon ibu
Bila seronok? Orang pertama aku nak beritahu? Ibu
Bila bengang.. Aku suka luah pada ..Ibu
Bila takut, aku selalu panggil.. ? Ibuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!
Bila sakit, orang paling risau adalah ..Ibu
Bila nak exam, orang paling sibuk juga ibu
Bila merajuk, yang datang pujuk aku juga.. Ibu
Bila buat hal, yang marah aku dulu..Ibu
Bila ada masalah, yang paling risau.. Ibu
Yang masih peluk dan cium aku sampai hari ni.. Ibu
Yang selalu masak makanan kegemaranku.. Ibu
Yang selalu simpan dan kemaskan barang-barang aku, Ibu
Yang selalu berleter kat aku.. Ibu
Yang selalu puji aku.. Ibu
Yang selalu nasihat aku.. Ibu
Bila nak kahwin..
Orang pertama aku tunjuk dan rujuk? Ibu

Bila aku ada pasangan hidup sendiri
Bila seronok ... Aku cari pasanganku
Bila sedih ... Aku cari Ibu
Bila berjaya ... Aku ceritakan pada pasanganku
Bila gagal ... Aku ceritakan pada Ibu
Bila bahagia ... aku peluk erat pasanganku
Bila berduka ... aku peluk erat ibuku
Bila nak bercuti ... Aku bawa pasanganku
Bila sibuk ... Aku hantar anak ke rumah ibu
Bila sambut valentine ... Aku hadiahi bunga pada pasanganku
Bila sambut hari ibu ... Aku cuma dapat ucapkan Selamat Hari Ibu
Selalu........Aku ingat pasanganku
Selalu.....Ibu ingat kat aku
Bila-Bila.....Aku akan talipon pasanganku
Entah bila....Aku nak talipon ibu
Selalu....Aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku
Entah bila.....Aku nak belikan hadiah untuk Ibuku

Ikhsan daripada seseorang yg senantiasa mengingati, terima kasih kerana mengingatkat aku.

Letting Go 2

2009-02-01T22:18:00.007+08:00

Rainbow Six Las Vegas 2 – R3- RM120
Saints Row 2 – R1- RM100
Enchanted Arms – R1- RM80
Prince of Persia – R3- RM120 -SOLD
Tony Hawk Project 8 – R1- RM60 -SOLD
Need for Speed ProStreet – R3 - RM60 -SOLD
Genji - R3- RM60 -RESERVED

Grab the remaining three, I could let it go for RM280, :D

I can assure you all the disc are scratchless, fingerprintless and smudgeless.

Also willing to trade with any of these game titles, will topup if necessary:
Mirror’s Edge
Mercenaries 2
Little Big Planet

Personally, I prefer we meet, and do cash and carry. I can make delivery to around Subang Jaya, USJ, and Sunway. I’m not that familiar with other places, if you think it’s easily reachable, we can talk about it. Also, I can courier for you also. No delivery charges of any kind. I will handle the courier and all that.

Interested buyer can contact me on cellphone, SMS anytime of the day, call only after office hour please. Or PM me, or YM me. Thank you.

Cellphone: 017 460 7780

Email n YM: elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com

Folks, do spread the word out. Thank you.

The pics

Kawan, Lawan, Sawan, Rawan

2009-01-02T17:15:00.001+08:00

Orang cakap aku sombong,
Ingat aku tak peduli?
Aku bukan sombong,
Cuma susah nak mempercayai,
Untuk kawan baru,
Jangan terasa kalau kita tak tentang mata,
Bukan aku tak mahu, Bukan aku tak suka,
Tapi aku pon susah nak kata,
Senang cakap, ‘segan’ kata orang utara.

Dari dulu lagi, aku dibesarkan sebegini,
Sehinggalah aku besar sebegini,
Masih dengan ajaran kapitalis dulu lagi,
Susah nak buang, ajaran org tua,
Kadang2 ajaran mereka berguna,
Tapi selalu nya kita ni yang xtau guna,
Senang kata, kita ni yang xdak guna,

Sekarang ni susah nk hidup,
Kawan jadi lawan, lawan jadi sawan,
Adik beradik pn kadang2 jadi sawan,
Masing2 nak naik atas awan,
Habes semua org kita tolak cawan,
Akhir sekali, lawan smpai rawan.
Mampoih.

Dreaming of Screaming

2009-01-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

That day I Dream of you,
That day I Scream for you,
That day I Dream of Screaming at you,
That day I Scream for Dreaming of you.

Aku bukan cinta mu……

2008-12-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

Aku bukan cinta mu kerana paras rupa mu yang ayu,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila kau kepudaran rupa,
Pudar juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku bukan cinta mu kerana suara mu yang merdu,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila kau membisu,
Bisu juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku bukan cinta mu kerana hati mu yang baik,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila kau marah berhasad dengki,
Marah dan berdengki juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku bukan cintamu kerana ibadah mu yang sempurna,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila kau kadang-kadang terleka,
Leka juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku bukan cintamu kerana senyum mu yang manis,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila kau sebak,
Sebak juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku bukan cintamu kerana harta mu yang ada,
Kalau cintaku begitu, nanti bila harta kau tiada,
Tiada juga cintaku kepadamu.

Aku cintakan mu kerana kau kamu,
Bukan Siti Khadijah,
Bukan Aishah,
Bukan Saodah,
Bukan Zainab,
Bukan Zhulaikha,

Aku cintakan mu kerana kau kamu,

Aku ingin mendekati syurga,
Dengan kau menemani ku.

Aku cintakan kamu.

EPF rate reduction?

2008-12-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

did you guys read?, hoho,

I quote

"the reduction of the employees monthly statutory contribution rate from 11 per cent to 8 per cent, effective from January 2009 wage for a period of two years"

"Members of the Employees Provident Fund (EPF) who wish to maintain the employees monthly contribution rate at 11 per cent from January 2009"

from New Strait Times Online dated 1st December 2008

The keyword here, WISH, meaning it is optional, not compulsory, hehe, now we could see, if your company is making money, and still do the reduction, I'd say, they don't want you there.

See?, with the current rate, 11 per cent, out of RM100, you get RM11 monthly, that will sum up to 11 x 24, RM264 in two years.

The new rate, 8 per cent, out of RM100, you get RM8 monthly, that will sum up to 8 x 24, RM192 in two years.

There's 3 per cent difference, every month, for two years,

Take a 100, 3 per cent of a 100 is 3 rite?

3 times 12 equals to 36 rite? Then times it by two, it will be 72 rite?

Now, if you are being paid RM100 monthly, RM72 is the amount you will lose in two years if the reduction rate take place, get the picture yet?

Hmm, good news for those signing the cheque, bad news for those getting their cheque signed, heheh.

Kurikular vaskular

2008-11-19T18:04:00.001+08:00

Aku ada baca satu artikel dekat bloq sapa ntah, dia kata tumbuhnya universiti di Malaysia ni, mcm cendawan lepas ujan, paling senang ckp, mcm banjir kilat kt KL kalo ujan lebat, kejap ja, zummm, banjir, begitulah gamaknya, yg dia hiraukan sgt, kemunculan universiti sekalian2 yg x layak lgsung dipanggil universiti, hmm,

X percaya? Ini satu contoh, umum ya, x dak dituju ke sapa2, taun lepas kita kolej, tahun ni jadi kolej universiti, tahun depan kita universiti, apa yg sebenarnya membolehkan kita didefinasikan sebagai sebuah universiti? Yg aku pahamkan, sesebuah universiti, msti bg pendidikan tggi lepas sekolah dlm pelbagai bidang, ada penganugerahan sijil, dan mesti ada buat penyelidikan. Hmm, skang ni, byk universiti swasta, ada dua tiga kursus pengajian je

Adakah kursus2 yg diorg tawarkan ni, kurikularnya relevan dengan permintaan industri pekerjaan? Lepas tuh, mereka2 yg cuba mendapatkan pendidikan tinggi di tempat2 yg mcm ni, isk, berbaloikah dgn apa yg dibelanjakan? Kita semua dah pasti tahu, pendidikan swasta ni, harganya amat mahal kalo nk bandingkan dgn perndidikan awam, x kiralah mana2 peringkat pn, bandingkan sekolah kebangsaan dengan sekolah jenis kebangsaan, bandingkan kelas tambahan dengan pusat tuisyen, bandingkan uni awam dengan uni swasta, dari segi perbelanjaan, huh, letih nak dihurai, soalnya, adakah berbaloi?

Para ibubapa sudah tentu mahukan anak2 mereka mendapat yg terbaik, untuk masa depan anak2 sendiri juga, tp satu benda yg sgt janggal sekarang ni, kita sebagai pelajar, berhutang untuk mendapat pengajian, hmm, mmg x terlalu asing bg masyarakat kita sekarang, tp amat janggal kalau dipanjangkan isu ni,

Universitas sekalian mendapat pendapatan ataupn profit daripada bilangan pelajar yg mereka ambil masuk (admittance), bukan daripada bilangan pelajar yg mereka lepas keluar (graduates), pelajar2 yg x layak nk habiskan pengajian, kena habiskan duit sekali lagi untuk tamatkan pengajian dan bergelar graduan. Mmg jelas, pendidikan dah jadi salah satu jenis industri yg paling menguntungkan. Mgkin sebab ini kita dpt lihat percambahan institusi pengajian tinggi dlam negara kita sekarang. Dan mereka mendapat galakan dari pihak2 sekalian yg memberi bantuan kewangan, mereka yg membuat penilaian tahap pendidikan, dan mereka yg memberi penganugerahan pangkat taraf institusi pendidikan. Apa zaman sekarang mereka ambil kira taraf dengan berapa bilangan pelajar yg mereka ambil masuk?

Juga, setelah bergelar graduan, kita x usah sembang pasal kelayakan kali ini, cuma kita tgk pasal peluang, setelah bergelar graduan, adakah mereka semua ni ada tempat dlam industri pekerjaaan? Kalau ya, mengapa taraf penganguran makin tinggi? Kali ni kita x payah sembang pasal kelayakan, kita cuma sebut pasal peluang, kau, aku, dia, kita, mereka, adakah semua dpt peluang yg sama? Tanya aku, aku ckp tidak, kita x pernah dijanjikan apa2 selain penganugerahan sijil selepas bergelar graduan. Heh.

Istana Kayangan?

2008-11-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

Igt Ayah Pin ngan istana awan dia? Heheh, skang ni dia muncul kembali, jadi isu gila-gila pulak, siap ada pihak2 tertentu menuding jadi salahkan pihak bertanggung jawab x komited menjalankan tugas menahan si Ayah Pin itu. Aku mmg simpati pada tahap mentaliti pihak yg dok menuding jari tuh, mereka risau ramai lg yg terjebak, lepas tuh salahkan pihak bertangungjwb? Wajarkah?

Paling utama skali, sesiapa yg sampai terjebak ngan teori haluan kiri Ayah Pin ni, mmg kena masuk mengaji balek, gila ka apa? Kesah tuh yg jadi runsingan pihak2 sekalian, tp x kan smpai nk salahkan pihak x bertanggungjwb? Mereka yg bodoh mengikuti ajaran haluan kiri tuh patut kena ditegur oleh mereka yg terdekat, bukan saja nk serah ke jabatan agama, apa? x yakin dgn diri sendiri kah? Kita cuma xdak kuasa nk hukum, bg nasihat itu mmg jadi tanggujwb kita, tmbah2 jika mereka yg terjebak tu, dekat dgan kita, pahem?

Head On

2008-11-07T21:43:00.004+08:00

My 101st post, what a shame it has to be a rant. Demmit.

Well, word’s is that the Royale Bintang case is what causing me my job. Hmm, my company might already lose the contract to Royale Bintang system maintenance, hell, I don’t know the details, and I don’t even know if it’s true. The thing for sure is that I’ve already lost my job. Next month, I’ll be unemployed. Demmit.

But if my company really is putting the blame on me, I definitely go against that, hell, ever since I joined this company, ever since I knew Royale Bintang was a client, ever since I got involved with Royale Bintang, it spells nothing else but P.R.O.B.L.E.M. and is it my fault that my company lose the contract?

Well, if you don’t like long and boring story, refer to this post, it was a summarized version of what you’ll read if you continue reading. Heh.

Hmm, the story was somewhat like this, I was told to go and replaced a unit, a fucked up new unit with a newer one, mind you, both are totally differ in brands and method, so, I did. Then the plot thickens, when I was there, I couldn’t see any SSID from any of the new AP’s I’ve replaced before that day. Then it gets more interesting, yes, my company consultant cum supervisor (my self-entitlement to him) was there in the morning and he knew about this problem. Wow. So I did all I could trying to get everything okay again. I found out that somebody, SOMEBODY, had messed with the switches, the cabling were all messed up, and one of them switches were not functioning. This ‘faulty’ 24 port switch was not distributing IP like it should do. Haa, what can I do? I couldn’t make a replacement if I don’t have any switches with me can I? So what I did was, I plug in the DHCP server cable to the remaining 8 and 4 port switches. And it work, with limitation of course, not everywhere could get an access cause of the faulty switch. So, the end result was, I could see my SSID again, but not everywhere. Then, before I leave, I wrote a note attention to the head of MIS there, in the note, it say things like what did I do, and how to use the new controller unit. It was something like this;

{
Mr. X,

I replace that new fucked up unit with a newer unit.

1. go to the login page, choose Local Authentication
2. key in username: xxxx, password: xxxx

The billing is not used anymore.

My signature and name goes here
}

Ah, well, not every word was like that, but you get the idea, heh, and please bear in mind that it was 2am, I wouldn’t call anyone at that time, well, except the police maybe. I knew the next morning I would get yelled at. Ahah. But I don’t actually, eheh, I do get a call though, asking me to go and checked again. It was a Saturday morning, and I was already on my way to a friends wedding. So I said I couldn’t go, I also told them if it’s later in the evening perhaps I could make it, or even if not, I will go the day after.

Yes, I understand their business involved a lot of public, and they would want to save face, but I suggest this, employ an in house technician, you had an MIS division WITHOUT ANYBODY IN IT, what the fuck? And the head, what was he doing? Yes, he did what everybody else would on a free day. What he didn’t do is stop yapping when it’s his ass on the line, yeah, who would like their ass being chewed on rite? I don’t either.

To continue with the story, he then calls, another he also calls, even he also calls, but hey, sorry dude, couldn’t make it, sorry, maybe later. So they take this as a no-show. Now, it’s my ass on the line. Heh. Luckily, my colleague is there to save the day, he went and saw that there were looping at the 24 port switch. Damn, no wonder it didn’t distribute IP’s. So, they say this was my fault; I’m incompetence and am not committed in doing my job.
Hey, ten points. Goddamn. He even told my colleague to plug in back the fucked up new unit. Ta-dah, my colleague was a hero, and I’m a fucked up uncommitted incompetence no-showing zero. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t one bit blame my colleague, not one bit. I mean, he saved me, he solved the problem. I just don’t like the blame that my company is putting on me.

I quote from my post

”And get this, is it not that I DON’T WANT to go, I CANT. You get that? CAN NOT. CAN’T. Perhaps the matter I’m attending to is none important to you, but hell, I CANT. Period.”

Yes, I couldn’t go. I COULDN’T GO. It’s totally different from I DON’T WANT TO GO. Try to fucking understand this simple matter.

While my ass was getting chewed on, he talked bout company would pay those who work on weekend, shit, fuck that, what, you think I thought that you wouldn’t pay that I didn’t go? I’m not the likes of you. If on that unfortunate day, I was lying on my bed naked doing nothing, I’d be happy to go. Lalal lala lala. Ah, well, maybe I wouldn’t be happy, but I’ll go, no question asked.

So then, the company loses the right to do maintenance, and here I am ranting about why I lost my job. Some say it wasn’t a big deal, but it is to me. I’m beginning to like this company, and now this. Ah, it’s been how many years I didn’t shed tears, not even when my grandpa died, but today I did. Twice.

Even so, I had a little something to say, stop kissing so much clients ass, then maybe, only maybe, you would have a little time to look into your employee’s charity. Then also maybe, just maybe, your employee would want to share a dinner table with you.

Anyhow, thank you for all the opportunity given, and fuck you if this is the main reason I’m being lay-off.

Perubahan

2008-11-07T11:38:00.002+08:00

So, Obama calon parti Demokrat dah jadi Presiden US. Tahniah. ini menunjukkan rakyat US dah sedia menerima perubahan. harap2 dengan kepimpinan beliau, hapus segala diskriminasi terhadap minimalis2 dalam negara dunia ketiga. harap hapus juga perang 'anti-keganasan'. harap hapus juga Islamophobia di kalangan negara2 di dunia. dlam kepimpinan Presiden yg sebelum ni, US dah hilang kredibiliti dan respek dari byk negara2 lain. harap kepimpinan baru ni bwk banyak perubahan, bukan saja dalam negara, tetapi secara universal.

Kita rakyat Malaysia bila lagi? aku mmg dok berharap ada perubahan, igt, Obama tu rakyat Amerika yg pilih, kita pn boleh buat mcm tuh, kita pilih kepimpinan, bukan kepimpinan pilih kita, ya? Yes, we can.

Kita pilih kerajaan untuk wakilkan kita. aku bukan anti-kerajaan sekarang, aku bukan pro mereka yg anti-kerajaan sekarang, cuma aku x suka, dan aku nak ada perubahan. kepimpinan sekarang pon masing2 dok baling kepala org sendiri, lepas tuh pakatan pon sama2 x setuju dengan ahli dalam pakatan sendiri. apa ni? mcm ni nak pimpin org kah? bg aku, baek pegi mampos. memang manusia x sempurna, tp kepimpinan mesti jadikan yg terbaik. yg skang kita dok nampak, yg berhaluan kiri mahupun yg berhaluan kanan, dua2 yg lebih nampaknya buruk daripada baek, jahanam, aku, dia, kita dan juga mereka.

yes, we can.

Hujung Jalan

2008-11-07T11:21:00.002+08:00

Aku smpai di hujung jalan,
Tak kan nak terus menunggu di hujung jalan?
Berpatah balik tidak boleh dijadikan pilihan,
Aku kena bukak jalan baru untuk aku lalui,
Tapi, aku tak tahu jalan mana patut aku pergi,
Perlu aku belok kekanan, atau,
Perlu aku belok kekiri?

Ada sesiapa atau apa-apa yang boleh menjadi arah tujuan aku?
Aku tak mahu lama-lama disini,
Celaka.Celaka.Celaka.

Mungkin aku boleh tamatkan perjalanan ini?
Jadikan mungkin.
Sungguh. Jadikan Mungkin.
Sungguh. Jadikan Mungkin.
Perjalanan ini yang tamat dihujung jalan.

Happy Halloween

2008-11-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Halloween, yeah, was it? was Halloween supposed to be a merry festive day? Was it based on a certain religion? Or was it just for remembering those who died an unfortunate death? Even if its so, I bet half of them who is celebrating don't even know who, heh. Even if its to remembering that someone unfortunate death, is it morally okay to be happy about it? haha. When is Halloween actually? I don't know, and don't care. Why? Cause we don't celebrate it here. haha.

just a thought, Halloween always come with costume, yeah? child dress up as superhero, supervillain, hook them up with ridiculously expensive costume for one time celebration only. why one time? cause they would never wanna be Batman twice in their lifetime don't they? or even, who would wanna be The Crow when the current 'in-thing' is IronMan, rite? heh, so, my idea for a Halloween costume? be the zombie, cause zombie got no costume, just sprinkle sauce or syrup on your face, and that's it. ta-dah. a Halloween costume. hahah

I'm glad we don't celebrate it Halloween here though. you know, when there a knock on the door, with crazy mask and all, I'm afraid that I might, yeah, MIGHT, chopped one of them's hands off. scary. what to expect? there's a group of masked people at my front door, I'd assume they wanna rob me or something, just think it like this, here, there a no guns for residents for whatever reason, its a good thing, if not, damn, I MIGHT blow them's head off without even opening my front door. yes? haha

Nafsu, Amarah, Airmata, Darah dan Dosa

2008-11-02T12:57:00.000+08:00

jalani kehidupan harian,
buat keputusan dengan Nafsu,
bukan dengan akal macam orang luar biasa,
bila kita dikekang, dihalang, dituduh,
Amarah mula membuak-buak, mahukan pembalasan serta keadilan,
pabila tindakan diambil, berseorangan mengalir Airmata,
kerana dorongan Nafsu, Amarah dan Airmata,
Darah ditumpah membasahi lantaian bumi,
hidup aku mmg bergelumang dengan Dosa

Belum sempurna..

2008-10-24T17:04:00.002+08:00

Aku quote dari entry Jie kt blog dia

"Dah norm kot lelaki leh ada banyak pompuan dalam hati at the same time. Takleh nak tolak fitrah."

aku harap ini x dituju kepada semua kaum Adam, huhu, so mcm mana? ada benarkah kenyataan ini? aku rasa, bukan semua kami mcm tuh, ya? atau tidak?

aku? aku kata aku tidak, tp aku x nafikan ada yg begitu. persoalannya, disengajakan atau tak disengajakan?

Belum cukup sempurna...

Rindu

2008-10-24T10:50:00.002+08:00

Aku rindu dia, sgt2, suma Dean punya pasal, timbulkan benda ni, argh,

Hilang dan datang,

Lemah hati kecil aku ni.

arini aku x mo keja.

apsal? kena tanya Dean, dia punya pasal,

adei.

Ideology

2008-10-23T18:11:00.002+08:00

Mlm semalam ulang layan Dark Knight lagi, huhu, sangat best, cerita superhero yg lebih emphasize kan antagonist daripada melebihkan pembentukan protagonist dlm menyampaikan jalan cerita. Mmg menghiburkan, refreshing org putih kata, ahak, ideology yg didedahkan sgt menepati sasaran, kalo kena jantung sapa2, kira mati terus ja, ahak

Dlm cerita Dark Knight, antagonist yg jadi idola, The Joker, digambar kan sebagai seorang yg daring dan gila, cuba mengubah persepsi Gotham City yg menyanjungi Batman dan Harvey Dent, pembanteras jenayah di Gotham City. Dia push Batman, Harvey, dan Gotham citizen smpai naik langit, dan seperti manusia biasa, bila kena push, mula la melenting, hehe, Batman makin meliar bila org yg dia sayang kena culik, dan kena bunuh, sama dengan Harvey, bg Gotham citizen pulak, depa dgn rasa x berdosa nk letupkan kapal yg dipenuhi banduan, sebab mereka banduan. Heh, apa yg didedahkan ni sgt benar, bila x kena kt kita, kita kata x apa, bila kena kt kita? Heh, melenting beb. Mcm Nabil Raja Lawak punya punchline, “lu pikir la sendiri”

Lepas layan Dark Knight, layan pulak Freedom Writers, cerita seorg pendidik yg cuba nk ubah persepsi pelajar2 dia yg prejudis terhadap warna kulit, kaum, agama, bangsa. Konsep narrowminded ni cuba diketengahkan dgn cara yg bijak skali, dlm peryampaian jalan cerita ni, dia sampaikan yg walopon kita ni dari ethnic yg berbeza, kaum yg berbeza, agama yg berbeza, tp semua kita ada masalah masing2, jgn anggap sesekian kita lebih baik daripada sesekian yg lain.

Sgt benar apa yg cuba didedahkan, tgk sendiri masyarakat kita sudah, x payah pergi jauh2, kita kt Malaysia dah jadi masyarakat majmuk yg terdiri daripada bermacam2 etnik, bangsa, agama, smpai x terkira dah, kita boleh lihat dimana2, tp suma kita cuma nk hidup mcm biasa juga

Dlm Freedom Writer, karakter Eva digambar kan sebagai seseorg yg sgt rebellious, membenci setiap bangsa lain, dia snggup berbohong nak menyebelahi rakan sebangsa dia walopon terang2 rakan dia tuh bersalah, mmg naluri kita nk mempertahan org kita, tp kalo smpai jatuh maruah bangsa, buat apa kan? So dlm kes ini, Eva telah membelakangi rakan dia, telah diugut bunuh, tp tindakan yg dia ambil tuh betul.

Karakter Andre pulak, cuba nk ubah diri sendiri dan keluarga dgn cara sendiri, tp abang dia yg tgh trial telah dihukum penjara, dia x puas hati dgn keputusan itu dan cuba nk memberontak, masuk geng, ponteng sekolah, dia juga beranggapan, setiap benda yg salah, x perlu ada keadilan, yg patut ada cuma pembalasan, satu ideology yg bg aku, sgt menakutkan, tp bukankah itu yg selalu berlaku? Heh,

P/S, Freedom Writers ni direferkan secara x langsung oleh ZHFR dlam salah satu artikel dia, thnx dude, lama x layan drama movie. hehe

Fuckin A

2008-10-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

Arini kena sound lg, demmit, kali kedua aku jadi alpha dog, niceee, pasal apa? Pasal aku x feedback and rectify the problem, bullshit, dlm dua2 kes, aku ada rectify problem aku, and aku X DPT SUPPORT, NOT FROM ANYBODY I'M SUPPOSED TO, fuckin A,

For this recent so called accident, I work my ass of during nighttime, without dinner, until 2 in the fuckin morning, I got home almost 4 in the morning, just to get yelled at during 8 in the morning, well, at first it was a HARDWARE FAILURE, then suddenly it became a HUMAN ERROR, and that human is me, fuck me? Yeah? Before I leave, I even left a note attn to the head of the IT dept. It was 2am, you want me to make a call during this time of the day? I don’t think so either.

And get this, is it not that I DON’T WANT to go, I CANT. You get that? CAN NOT. CAN’T. Perhaps the matter I’m attending to is none important to you, but hell, I CANT. Period.

Talking bout how I’m not determined for the job. You don’t know shit. READ. YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT. If I am not determined doing my job, I WOULD have done fucked U all up by now, eh?

Pound me all you want, hate me, detest me, do all you want, but saying I’m not doing my job, when I actually did, it pisses me off the most. FUCK YOU! Twice. Demmit.

I wish you would read this. But guess not, heh, even so, I’m fucked up.

Cinta waktu itu, cuma...

2008-10-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Ketika aku ada temuduga, jmpa dengan dia itu, jmpa dgn ramai org sebenarnya, tp org lain x menjadi punca nukilan kali ni, dia adalah watak utama kali ini, dia sgt comel, rendah diri, ataupn dia cuma segan? Itu x penting, yg penting, dia saingan aku untuk mendapat kerjaya ini, aku asek berharap, dia dpt bekerja dengan aku, adakah ini amat mustahil? Kalo tidak mustahil, aku mmg amat berharap, haha

Aku dipanggil dulu, selepas selesai, aku melambai kepada kenalan yg baru berkenalan semasa menunggu, dia itu sangka aku melambai kepadanya, lambaian aku dibalas, wow, aku terkedu, reaksi yg x disangka2, dari aku dan juga dia, mahu aku pergi minta nombornya, tp aku xnak malukan dia itu, sekarang, dapat tak aku jmpa dia lg nanti? Hmm, menyesal? Sedikit!

Belum cukup sempurna.

Lelaki Ego

2008-10-17T00:11:00.001+08:00

Seringkali kita dgr kaum hawa kata kaum adam ego, heheh, apakah kebenarannya? Ya, lelaki mmg ego, tp ego mereka selalu bertempat, xditabur mcm2 tu saja, kami lelaki, selalu pikir dulu apa akan jadi lepas dia ambil apa2 tindakan, kalo outcome tuh agak menghala kekiri, lelaki akan cuba elakkan,

Selalu kita dgr ungkapan2 sedemikian daripada mereka yg sedang berpacaran or even yg dah berumahtangga, pasal mereka dah mengalami first hand, tp, jika hanya sekali terkena, layakkan pasangan kaum adamnya dilabel ego? Bagi aku, kalo kita sendiri dah sggup label org itu dan ini, kita sendiri yg ego, heh,

Tp mmg ada lelaki yg amat ego, itu aku x nafikan, tp bukan semuanya mcm tuh, aku paham kaum hawa dah bosan dgr ayat ‘bukan semua lelaki mcm tuh’, heh, tp ianya adalah kenyataan, yg penting saling memahami dan komunikasi, dlm satu2 perhubungan, x kira sebagai pasangan hidup, teman cinta, atau kwn2 sekalipn, kalo dua benda ni x ada, heh, mereka lebeh menjadi org yg kau x kenali,

Kadang2 kamu marah bila kami melarang kamu, x membenarkan kamu buat itu buat ini, tp benda ni jadi punca kata kami ego, tp xtrpikirkah kamu, kami mgkin cuma nak membela kamu dari mghadapi kecelakaan, mgkin kamu boleh mengerjakan sesuatu, tetapi kami lebeh rela kami yg dihadapi kecelakaan daripada ianya mengenakan kamu, layakkah kalo begitu kami dilabel ego?

Kadang2 kamu marah bila kami minta segelas air bila kamu sedang2 berehat, jadi punca mengatakan kami ego, katakn kami boleh berbuat demikian sendiri, mmg, kalo kami senang2 mmg kami akan buat sendiri, mgkin kami keletihan selepas menyelesaikan tugasan2, bukannya kami memperhambakan kamu, semuanya kamu perlu buat untuk kami, cuma kadang2 kami pinta, layakkah kalo begitu kami dilabel ego?

Apapn, kena saling memahami, kalo masing2 saling berpaling muka, cadangan aku, berpisah lah, hubungan kamu x kan mghasilkan kebaikan, kesimpulannya, kami lelaki mmg ego, dan kami berbangga dgn status tuh, tp jangan smpai sikap ego kami bertembung dgn ego kamu, xmembawa apa2 kebaikan, dan kami mmg ego, sebab itu nukilan ini datangnya dari kaum Adam sendiri, terima kasih kerana menyudahkan pembacaan smpai rangkap terakhir, harap ini dapat melegakan taksefahaman aku dan dia, kami dan kamu

Hilang Kau Datang

2008-10-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

Menangis aku sendiri

Kau..jelmalah engkau

Malam..di gerbang luka
Menggarap cinta

Bulan.. bukannya bintang
Siang..hilanglah malam
Gundah... bila kau hilang
Resah..hilang kau datang

Jika kau tiba,
Jelanglah sinar malamku yang kesepian

Sayang..bila kau datang
Senyum..hilanglah duka

---------------------------------------------------------------
Frasa2 dari lagu Jinbara - Hilang

Airmataku ikut bercucuran,

Belum sempurna?

Mati

2008-10-13T12:54:00.003+08:00

Mati,
Antara yg dijanjikan tuhan akan dinikmati seumat manusia,
Biar dimana kita berada,
Agama apa kita anuti,
Tuhan apa kita percayai,
Mati adalah sesuatu yg pasti,
Kita manusia x boleh lari dari kenyataan ini
Ingat, kita x pernah dijanjikan esok hari,
Ingat, semua yg kita ada bukan bekalan hidup satu lagi,
Ingat, ibu, ayah, suami, isteri, anak2 x boleh membantu nak harungi hidup yg satu lagi,
Ingat, hidup yg satu lagi dijanjikan indah jika indah ibadah kita dihidup ini,
Jika tidak, MasyaAllah.

BOSAN

2008-10-13T12:41:00.004+08:00

sesungguhnya,
aku dah bosan hidup dikota,
walopon disini dekat dgn dia,
tapi sebenarnya kami berjauhan,
bukan hanya dengan pandangan mata,

aku dah bosan hidup dikota,
aku nk pulang ke kampung semula,
tapi dikampung xdak kerjaya,
jadi disini rezeki bermula,

aku dah bosan hidup dikota,
apa ada disini yg tak ada disana?
disana aku ada keluarga yg disini tak ada,
bila lagi aku boleh pulang kesana?

aku dah bosan hidup dikota,
bapa, ibu, nantikan kepulangan anakmu,
mgkin bila aku dah berkeluarga,
aku tak mahu lagi tggal dikota.

bosannya hidup dikota,
apa kota ada yg sana tak ada?
kota ada mewah dan kaya,
sana pn ada juga,
kota ada dosa dan hina,
sana pn sama juga,
kota! aku bosan.
apa hebat tggal di kota?
pulang kerumah papa kedana,
sebab dikota berlagak mcm kaya,
pulang kekampung apa pn tak ada,
haha

Olympus e300

2008-09-16T08:55:00.008+08:00

Letting go of my SLR Olympus e300, price still can nego, quote me your best price. Bought it for RM1899 in April 2007, wanna let go cause I don’t use it that much anymore, always been in my closet only, wanna downgrade to a compact camera back, also, uhh, I need cash, :D . When I used it lately, I noticed a ‘ghostly’ blue line appeared in the picture in low-lightning condition. Its was somewhat like a dead pixels. Check out my sample pics to see. Other than that, its perfect. Check out this link for complete review of the camera.

Price: expect RM1100, but quote me your price.

Item list:
•Olympus e300 camera body, 8megapixel
•Olympus’s ZUIKO Digital 14-45mm lense
•1gb MAGU compact flash
•Hoya 58mm UV lens filter
•Lens hood and lens guard
•Li-ion battery, 7.2v 1500mAh
•Battery charger
•USB to miniUSB cable
•Video cable
•Manual CD
•Manual Book
•Box, :D

Thrown in:
•2x Kingston 256mb compact flash card
•Transend 256mb compact flash
•FotoData Camera bag

So, I can make delivery to around Subang Jaya, Puchong, Kelana Jaya, USJ, and Sunway. I’m not that familiar with other places, if you think it’s easily reachable, we can talk about it. I prefer we meet, and do cash and carry. This involves a lot of cash and quite fragile material, so I don’t recommend courier services.

Can try first, but I prefer ‘buy after try’, :D, I can give you crash course of how to use the camera.

No warranty given. Ive already mentions all defects, you can inspects first before making ur mind.

Interested buyer can contact me on cellphone, SMS or call only, missed call won't be entertain.

017 460 7780

Email n YM: elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com

Do spread the word out. Thank you.

FOR MORE PICS, CHECKOUT MY BLOQ, PIXELBYTE, ALL WERE TAKEN BY THIS HERE E300

Sample pics(click to enlarge)

Pics taken without flash under florescent lighting

Pics taken with flash under florescent lighting

Pics taken nightime without flash, notice the blue line

Same condition as above pics, notice the blue line

Pics taken daytime during foggy weather

Tanpamuuu...

2008-08-28T15:57:00.000+08:00

‘Tanpamu… Kurasa… resah dan gelisah….’

Aku terdgr frasa ni masa aku tgh sebok2 tune channel radio kereta aku yg makin bikin hal, hoho, sapa ah nyanyi lagu tuh? Aku mmg tatau sapa punya lagu, Cuma ia terngiang2 kt corong telinga aku walopon hanya mendengernya hanya skali, tone, beat, phrase suma suma berjaya menarik hati kering aku ni, apa nak buat?

Arini aku d klcc, lagi, heh, n arini byk budak2 sekolah keluar buat lawatan ke klcc, melawat ikan2 di aquaria mgkin, ada budak sekolah tadika, ada budak sekolah rendah, ada budak sekolah menengah, hmm, mewah budak2 skang ni, smbil aku dok tinjau2 depa buat apa, aku nampak ada yg pakai henset yg mahal dari aku, hoh, aku kagum? Kepunyaan siapa mmg bukan persoalan, tp mereka mempergunakannya yg jadi isu skang ni, mereka xakan dipertangungjwbkan atas kelakuan sendiri, tp memiliki asset yg lebey dari seorg yg bekerja, aku jeles? Itu bukan persoalan sekarang ini, Cuma, temptation tuh, mmg agak menguasai diri, aku cuba bayangkan, apa akan jadi kalo aku rompak dia? Heheh, apa? Dia ramai dlm kumpulan? Ada mcm2 cara nk pisahkan dia dari kumpulan tuh, tp itu bukan isu, mewah sungguh kehidupan mereka, aku ada kawan yg skang ni bekerja, tp x memiliki henset, mengapa? Itu bukan persoalan……

Dunia yg baru

2008-08-12T21:44:00.001+08:00

Tgk kazen2 kawan2 suma dah bertunang, even ada yg dah kahwin, aku makin rasa hidup aku ni sgt sunyi, nampak mcm aku ada ramai kwn2, tp kwn2 ada bila ada saja, x bleh nak temankan aku sepanjang masa, kawan2 pejabat ada masa pejabat saja, kawan2 belajar ada masa belajar saja, kawan2 serumah ada masa dekat rumah saja, kawan2 karib ada bila bersemuka saja, xdak keadaan tuh, xdak kawan la aku, dunia aku sgt sunyi

Dulu masa aku kecik2 aku suka berseorangan, masa sekolah, aku jarang sgt la berbunyi, masa kt uni pn sama la, aku bukan x bersosial langsung, cuma rasa kadang2 aku lebih suka menyendiri, hehe, konon cool la sorg2, tp makin lama, aku rasa aku macam perlukan perhatian, x kira la perasaan mcmana pn, aku rasa aku perlukan, benci, marah, suka, cinta, mmg aku perlukan. Nk kena cari teman hidup kongsi perasaan cepat2 ni, lama2 aku mcm ni, boleh jd gila, skang ni pn ramai dah kata aku gila, aku pn rasa aku ni gila, tp bukan gila mcm org gila, gila mcm org yg org kata org gila,

Ah, tmbah tekanan aku pikir dan tulis pasal benda ni, tp aku x tau nk luahkan kt sapa, nak cerita kat sapa? Ini la tempat aku, at least sapa yg membaca ni tau, walaupn benda ni akan dilupai selantas masa dia tutup page aku ni, xkesah, janji ada org tau, ada kwn aku kata aku ni hati lembut, dulu aku xbleh terima dia kata mcm tuh, aku nih mat metal, mana bleh hati lembut, tp skang baru la bleh tau mcm mana sebenarnya, huhu

Agak2 bila pulak aku nk melangkah ke dunia baru yg satu lagi, zaman belajar dah tamat, zaman mengangur dah tamat, zaman bekerja baru bermula, bila agaknya aku nak mula zaman berkeluarga? Huhu, perit kalo pikir benda ni, doakan aku cepat2 ada jodoh. IsyaAllah, Amin.

Kembali aku ke kehidupan yg sunyi ni….. sendiri lagi…..bosan….nak pergi….

Berdiri ditepi

2008-08-12T18:29:00.001+08:00

satu hari pada bulan Ogos 2008, di pagi2 hari smpai petang2 hari

Aku kena ‘standby’ (kalo dimelayukan maksud dia lebey kurang mcm ‘berdiri ditepi’) masa event kali ni, dan aku mmg berdiri ditepi saja. Kalau ada masalah baru aku dipanggil untuk selesaikan konflik antara mesin dan kemanusiaan, Konflik antara aku dan org yg utuskan aku, konflik antara mereka dan mereka yg utuskan aku. Itu tugasan diberi, aku dipertanggungjawabkan, so aku kena selesaikan.

Ada mereka yg x tgk aku sebagai berkelayakan, x tgk aku sebagai berkemampuan, sehinggalah kepuasan mereka dipenuhi, manusia mmg tamak, x kira dari segi apa pn, kita mmg tamak. Dlm tugasan aku menyelesaikan konflik, kebanyakan yg timbul bukan teknikal dan bukan mesiniari, cuma kdg2 berpunca dari intelektual yg minima dan egoisme yg maksima. Aku x boleh berkata apa2, cuma menjalankan tanggungjawab untuk menjaga kepuasan hati mereka. (secara x langsung menjaga reputasi kompeni dan maruah diri, heheh.)

Masih ada beberapa hari lagi aku kena berterusan mcm ni, sapa nk jadi pengganti? Aku mmg x boleh bersosial dlm dunia mereka yg dipenuhi ilmuwan2 dgn tahap intelek yg tggi, rasa mcm diri ni kecik sgt, aku dah x sabar…dah x boleh…dah……

luangkan masa dgn membuang masa

2008-08-04T17:19:00.003+08:00

Teringin nk luahkan perasaan tntang idea yg mengatakan main permainan video adalah membuang masa. Td tgh baca Harian Metro, kt situ terang2 kata lepak2 di cyber cafe adalah MEMBUANG MASA. Kenapa kita x bleh nampak yg main permainan video sebagai satu hobi untuk MENGISI MASA LAPANG. aku seorg pemain permainan video, dah tentu aku x senang org kata aku main 'video game' sebagai membuang masa. Aku main bila aku ada masa lapang, salahkah benda tuh?

Kalo nak kategorikan hobi berunsur hiburan sebagai membuang masa, jadi, bagaimana dgan mereka yg suka menonton TV? xkira la apa yg dia tonton, asalkan ada masa dia luangkan untuk menonton TV, adakah itu juga dikira membuang masa? heh, bagaimana pulak dgn mereka yg hobinya membaca? adakah mereka juga membuang masa? x, mereka mengisi masa lapang. bagaimana dengan mereka yg hobinya mengumpul setem? bagaimana dgn yg hobinya melukis? bagaimana dgn yg hobinya memancing? apa sekalipn, semuanya lebih baik daripada hanya duduk tepi tangga kunyah cikedis, lebih baek daripada duduk kedai kopi hisap rokok mengumpat org, lebih baik daripada hanya tidur

bezanya hobi ni, berfaedah dengan x berfaedah ja, mmg bermain permainan video ni kadang2 xda faedah pn, aku x nafikan, tp sekadar mengisi masa lapang, kalo mereka yg asik dgn rancangan realiti TV, ada faedahkah semua tuh? tp, hanya mengisi masa lapang, apakah salahnya?

tp, pada mereka yg xabeh2 dgn 'video game' smpai benda2 lain pn x jadi, itu dah cukup kronik, kalo kes mcm ni baru aku akan kata dia buang masa, sebab tuh aku kata hobi untuk meluangkan masa, bukan untuk menghabiskan masa. jgnlah trus2 kategorikan main 'video game' sebagai membuang masa. x profesional langsung pemikiran kamu.

so, bg aku satu contoh hobi yg bukan merupakan hiburan kepada individu, dan jugak x bleh dikategori sebagai membuang masa? sila, aku tggu.

We Plan or We Spent? Mobile Prepaid

2008-07-28T23:44:00.009+08:00

This entry rants abit on how we plan our expenses, or how they planned we spent? take a guess, either way, we were already hit in the head. This time, I focused on mobile phone prepaid expenses. let's check it out

U Mobile
Yes, fairly new in our mobile technology, said to be a competition for DIGI Prepaid and Hotlink because of their somewhat called ‘pay what we need’ rate, hehe. For now, their rates are applicable for their network and also inter-network. Sound promising? Yes at first, with their per-second charges, but, get this, 0.8 cent/sec = 48cent/min, yes? Also, their SMS rate are 1 cent higher than DIGI’s, wonder how will they top that, ohh, my bad, they already ‘topped’ that. heh

Happy
Said that whoever uses this Happy packages, will be happy, it provides flat out rate of 1 cent/sec with a max charge of 99 cent per call, yes, even if you talk from today till the day after tomorrow, the max charge still 99 cent. Hearing this already made me happy. Also it gives 60 days validity period for any reload. This is another DIGI Telecommunications product though. And it’s a flat out rate for any network. The only drawback is, it is not easily available.

Hotlink
Ahh, Hotlink, their call rate are not that cheap either, hmm, I dunno bout their other plan rate though. Also, the call rate for NotActive10 and Inter-Network are reduced to 36 cent/min after a total usage of RM30 in a month, this rate is made available for the next 30 days. After that, it will be back to the normal rate, even if you already used RM30 in the 30 days period.

DIGI Prepaid
First, understand that DIGI Prepaid had all the ‘plans’ to chose from, these are just the common one, note that FnF Plus are just extension for FnF, it would add up two more inter-network number and get the FnF Plus rate. See the value much differs? That’s is why people always stick to a ‘plan’. :D. and understand the 30 sec block system, it charge you when each 30 second of each minutes is over. Say, you talk for 1 minutes and 2 second. They’ll only charged you 11cent, but, if you talk for 1 minute and 32 second, they’ll charge you 22cent already. Brilliant? NOT. Also they had this ‘rate reducing’ scheme where the rate will be flat out 36 cent/min after usage amount of RM30.01 onward. Applicable only to the plan where the usual rate exceed 36 cent/min. Sound familiar? Hmm, where I’ve heard that before?

Xpax
Xpax, the most anticipating prepaid from a company that is able to sponsor a foreign football club. The rates? Are choking hazards. But still, said to have the most user. Dunno the facts though. But, they had the most complicated and ridiculous plans. Wanna know what I’m talking about?

Do understand the ‘adjacent-non-adjacent’ slang thingy, when Local, it means, you in Selangor, making a call to friend Selangor only. Adjacent, means, neighboring states, you in Selangor make a call to friends in Perak, Negeri Sembilan, Pahang. Non Adjacent means, the other state that didn’t fall in any other category, yes, you in Selangor make a call to friends in Kedah, Penang, Terengganu and all that. This is bad news for Perlis folks, as their neighboring states is only Kedah

MID Plan

Mind you, I am using this plan now.

Lite Plan

Didn’t notice it? Yes, the peak hour rates for SMS are higher that off-peak hour. Don’t bother asking me why, I’d say it’s for those who work night time or are dead during the day, to cater for vampires perhaps? Also, this Lite Plan, got the Super Off-peak SMS rate of 1 cent/sms, within the same network only though.

Max Plan

And yes, the plan is Max Plan, but the rates are much lighter that the so called ‘Lite Plan’, why don’t they just put it, ‘Light-You-Up-In-Flames Plan’, heh?

My point is, these are war-business, whoever winning, we (the customer’s) don’t. heheh. we can't chose what ever best that fits our need though. even when its not that necessary

[all info are taken from legitimate sources, at least I think so] [if you can't se the image, print it out (-__- Y) ]

Letting go!

2008-07-23T20:30:00.004+08:00

OK, I wanna let some of my PS3 Blu-Ray Disc games go, for a price of course, hehe, I can assure you all the disc are scratchless, fingerprintless and smudgeless. Letting each of it go for RM120 each. Take any combination of two disc’s, I’ll make it to RM220 for two. Take more than two dics’s, I’ll let it go for RM100 per disc. So if you wanna take all six of them, it’ll be a total of RM600.

I can make delivery to around Subang Jaya, Puchong, Kelana Jaya, USJ, and Sunway. I’m not that familiar with other places, if you think it’s easily reachable, we can talk about it. I prefer we meet, and do cash and carry. However, I can courier for you also. No delivery charges of any kind. I will handle the courier and all that.

Reasons of letting go are I’ve done playing.

Interested buyer can contact me on cellphone, SMS or call only, missed call won't be entertain.

019 428 6447
017 460 7780

Email n YM: elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com

Do spread the word out. Thank you.

The lists of available games are like below. Click the game name for the game review

Assassin’s Creed SOLD

Condemned 2: Bloodshot SOLD

Army of TwoSOLD

Tony Hawk’s Project 8

Juiced 2: Hot Import Night SOLD

Dragonball Z Burstlimit SOLD

Can trade game with me also, right now I’m wanna get Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare. Trading is only one for one.

Almost all being sold already. Thnx to your support and thnx to sogoatticus helping me to get customer in LYN. nnt aku belanja ko, hehe

Only left Tony Hawk's Project 8, any takers?

One Buck Short - Kelibat Korupsi

2008-07-13T13:52:00.003+08:00

One Buck Short, aku rasa band ni dah x asing lg, depa siap dah ada debut iklan tuh, iklan gila kentang kan? ntah la, x sure, so, One Buck Short tergolong dlm genre Punk Rock, byk kali dah perform kt pentas Rock the World, layankan lagu Kelibat Korupsi, deklarasi berani dari diorg, hehe, lirik aku dpt dari Leo's Lyrics, tp ada kau buat perubahan sikit2, heh, n video dia not exactly a video, tp aku nk korg dgr lagu dia, heh

X bleh view? Klik sini la

One Buck Short - Kelibat Korupsi

Betapa hebatnya kita membelit isu terkini
Fakir miskin terpedaya
Orang kaya semakin kaya
Bagaimana kita nak maju asyik mereka rembatkan
AP senang didapat
Projek besar diorang rembat

4 5 hitam biru mencari-cari tujuan
Aku dia kita mangsa
Hal kecil menjadi besar
Apa lagi yang kita semua perlu lakukan
Bangsa kita keluar malam
Maruah kita semakin curam

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

Bertahun-tahun akan kita merasai sengsara
Peperangan tak sudah!
Cari harta mengambil tanah!
Walau sekarang kita hidup hidup dah cukup mudah
Tak cukup tamak harta
Cari makan mereka kata

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

Bak kato
Cerito pendek
Kita harus
Kerja samo

Jago jago
Jago namo
Kalau jatuh
Depo pijok

Kerja samo
Boleh maju
Jange maleh
Jange tipu

Make rasuoh
Tike belake
Semuo ini
Buat rosak

Tuka caro
Kita fikir
Baru hapus
KORUPSI!

Tukar cara
Kita fikir
Baru hapus
KORUPSI!

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

Ingat kita takut?!
Apa mengarut?!
Kita tunjukkan!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!
RAKYAT KEDEPAN!

oiii, kecek Kelate budok Kedoh ni?

Plague Of Happiness - Konspirasi

2008-07-13T13:24:00.002+08:00

Plague of Happiness, Salah satu band indie tempatan yg popular dekat Malaysia, genre SKA, pure + punk, lagu diorg byk bwk mesej yg agak dalam, mmg kebiasaan dlam genre music SKA, lagu Konspirasi yg ni agak lain dripada yg ada dlam album Kawan, tp aku lebey suka versi ni, rilek ja, hehe, so, layankan, lirik aku tulis berdasarkan pendengaran, msti ada silap punya lah,

X bleh view? Klik sini la

Plague Of Happiness - Konspirasi

Konspirasi dizaman ini,
Mudah hilang mudah lengkap,
Tetap berkunjung lagi,
Kita songlap kita tentang,
Tetap ia x henti,
Namun kita tetap juga menuding hari,
Kerna, warna hati kian gelap ditutup benci,
Busuk mulut bawak dendam hasutan api,
Kenapa kita laung kita genggam sebuah uniti?
Tapi hakikatnya kita tetap berpecah lagi,

Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?

Konspirasi dizaman ini,
Bawak seribu jawapan yang sukar dierti,
Dwibahasa orang ternama tersisip rapi
Baik buruknya nampak berapi2?
Warna hati kian gelap ditutup benci,
Busuk mulut bawak dendam hasutan api,
Kenapa kita laung kita genggam sebuah uniti?
Tapi hakikatnya kita tetap berpecah lagi,

Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?

[SOLO]

Konspirasi dizaman ini,
Mudah hilang mudah lengkap,
Tetap berkunjung lagi,
Kita songlap kita tentang,
Ia x henti,
Namun kita tetap juga menuding hari,
Kerna, warna hati kian gelap ditutup benci,
Busuk mulut bawak dendam hasutan api,
Kenapa kita laung kita genggam sebuah uniti,
Hakikatnya kita tetap berpecah lagi,

Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?
Wooohhhh, kenapa kita tetap berpecah lagi?

Siput Ape?

2008-07-13T05:16:00.002+08:00

Diambil dari blog Friendster Fyro, apa lah dlm kepala ko weh, isk2, lawak dowh, impak maksimum ni,

AYAH: ayah ni siput ape?
AYAH : siput babi...
ANAK : siput ape?
AYAH : siput babi nak
ANAK : siput ape?
AYAH : siput babi syg..
ANAK : siput ape?
AYAH : siput la...babi!!

para bapa dan bakal bapa, jgn la jadi mcm ni, sabar dan sayanglah mereka yg tersayang,huhu

Kronologi Hidup Seorang Aku

2008-07-13T04:31:00.003+08:00

Entry kali ni pasal kronologi hidup aku, secara kasarnya lah, huhu, seronok imbas kenangan, walopon kenangan yg x indah,

Kecik2 seblom sekolah
Xigt sgt apa aku buat, yg aku tau aku penah dibesarkan di Kapar, aku x igt langsung aku penah dok Kapar, hoho, then famili aku pndah p Ampang, kt sini aku mula Tadika, x igt sgt dah zaman tuh, yg aku igt, siang2 aku dok Nursery ngan adek badek aku yg lain, ptg2 baru mak ngan ayah dtg amek, dulu both diorg keja KL, paham2 aja lah,

Kecik2 masa sekolah
Sekolah rendah, aku pernah sekolah dekat Ampang, apa nama sekolah jgn tanya lah, x igt, tp aku dok Taman Melor, nombor umah pn dah x igt, huhu, aku kt Ampang smpai dajah 3 kot, kawan2 sekolah rendah aku, budak2 taman aku, suma aku dah x igt, aku igt sorg pompuan ni, itu pn x sure aku kenal dia masa kt Ampang or Sg Buloh. Famili aku pndah Sg Buloh, sekolah dkat Merbau Sempak, kwn2 yg aku maseh igt kt sini is, Hafiz Nordin, jiran aku, Lokman, wannabe ketua darjah, ahak, Karim (ke Kamil?), famili dia org Kemboja, n Nerisma, bapak dia amat garang, hoho, hampir separuh masa aku kt Sg Buloh aku spent time ngn diorg. Itu pn dah totally lost contact ngan diorg, kalo bertembung pn mgkin dah x kenal,

Sekolah menengah
Nak naik sekolah menengah, ayah aku dpt offer keja kt Langkawi, so dia pndah dulu n bawak aku p cari sekolah kt Alor Star, famili aku x leh nk pndah ke Langkawi pasal sorg adik aku perlu pendidikan khas, dia ada masalah pendengaran, so aku jadi perantau bersekolah dkt SMK Dato’ Syed Omar, mula2 nk masuk Kolej Sultan Abdul Hamid, tp x dpt, tp syukur aku masuk Syed Omar, aku kenal ramai rakan2 karib dekat hostel, Amed, Pa’din, Nabel, Shidi, Yon, Fared Tan, Iman PakYa, Ajib, Boon,Otromen, Gee, At Koktai, Azahari, Yus, Mus, Wan Kola, Duan Ramli, Manja, kenal dgn senior2, Hilman Hilmi, Md Noq, Pit Tam, Fendi, Pak Syed, Khairi Awang Kecik, Pak Din, Radzi, Pak Ya, Faizal Tan, Ehsan, Bilal, Pit Said, Syed, Kuchai, Din Koktai, Bob, nama2 yg x sebut tuh jgn la kecik ati, aku igt ampa lg, InsyaAllah, masa form 1 dkt ujung taun, geng2 Faizal, Farid Kamil n Paklang masuk hostel pasal nk SPM, hoho, dekat2 nk PMR, Shawn, Iman MdNoq, Sham, masuk hostel, ada lg kot yg aku lupa, lepas PMR, Nasrul plak masuk hostel, ada sorg lagi, lupa la,

Zaman hostel ni aku rasa paling best, aku kenai ramai kwn, build up emotion, cari identiti sendiri, mcm2 hal jadi masa dok hostel Syed Omar ni, Md Salleh ngan cara didikan dia yg amat ekstrem, kita dgn cara sendiri nk pertama kali berjauhan dari famili, seronok,

Lepas PMR, aku dpt MRSM Jasin, tp aku x stay, aku x suka, masuk plak Teknik Alor Star (ASTECH), pn sama, xdpt feeling mcm aku dok kt hostel Syed Omar, aku balek Syed Omar, org kutuk aku manja, ya, aku mmg manja, manjakan diri sendiri, hehe, dok Syed Omar result SPM aku merudum, hoho, aku tetap dgn cara aku.

Membe2 yg aku igt sekelas masa form 4 n 5 are, Ali, Nabil, Amed, Pali, Magen, Hafiz Ibrahim, Poji, Izman, Redolf, Jeff, Sifu Timi, Azad, Zaheerah, Didie, Lina, Yati, Shafawati, Effa, Azida, Yusmye, Shuhada, Suraya, Aini, Ani, Elaiza, Nik Irma, ada sapa2 yg aku miss? ermm, yee, kelas aku mmg pompuan kongker, huhu, laki byk nk jadi ustaz, hhoho

Penah aku kena marah ngan Teacher pasal result English aku lg bagus dari result Bahasa Melayu, dia lagi naik angin bila dpt tau mak aku ajaq Bahasa Melayu n Sastera, hoho, result aku bukan teruk, cuma unexpected, org lain semua Bahasa Melayu better dari English, aku ja terbalik, lepas SPM aku dok melahu dkt Langkawi tggu dpt Uni, aku x expect mcm2, result aku x ok sgt,

Pelajar Universiti
Xsangka, aku dpt Matrix, Kedah, hoho, mmg excited, tp bapak aku x bg p, aku heran, so lepak lg tggu IPTA, IPTS pn aku apply, 1st result mai, MMU yg panggel, aku serba salah, nk p ka dak, nk tggu IPTA ka dak, takut xdpt yg len, masuk la MMU, dua tiga hari lepas registration kt MMU, offer UNITEN plak dpt, huhu, xpa la, dah masuk MMU pn, dua bulan kt MMU, UITM pn bg offer, hoho, rezeki kt MMU kot? Aku siap tukaq major pasal mula2 aku apply Creative Multimedia, x yakin sgt ngan seni aku, aku apply IT, Alhamdulillah ok.

So, masa mula2 registration mmg aku xdak tau sapa2, tanya kwn2 sapa masuk MMU jugak, xdak sapa, aiseh, keciwa pn ada, mula2 masuk dpt Apartmen Bunga Raya, kt situ la kenal kwn2, Hafizud, Firdaus, Rizal, Nizam, Nasri, Syafiq, Fahmi, sapa lg ek? Aku lupa dah, aku, Nizam n seorg lagi ni saja budak Alpha IT, yg len suma Alpha Engineering, hoho, bermulalah episod pelajar Alpha G26, dlm G26, aku kenal Najib, GD, Jeya, Farzaana, Amy Zurina, Thara Sufian, Priti, Chung Ee, Martin, Andrew, Joanne, Chern Aw, Rock Kee, Salem, Abdullah, dan lain2, mula2 masuk MMU agak culture shock skit, ahak,

Bila Beta, dah start merge class, makin ramai kenalan aku ada, Arief, Jai, Rasyd, Zue, Yasmin, Kherol, Lan, Ipin, Fawwaz, kawan2 punya kawan, aku byk jugak kenal dak2 engine pasal osmate mostly dak2 engine, so join jugak kadang2, kenal la ngan Wan Jepon, Hanis, Man,JonSolo, Azam, Alip Pidos, Haziq, geng2 diorg tuh, masa Gamma plak mula la berkenalan ngan dak2 KYM yg baru masuk, suma pasal aku kenal kawan lama dari hostel Syed Omar dulu, Lateef, dari dia la kenal Ashriq, Aiman, Pijah, Niza, Alip, Azmie, Bob Fawzly, Syed, masa final year yg sebok2 ngan FYP, pn ada dpt kenalan baru,

Graduan ….yg mengangur
Lepas grad, aku mengangur, aku balek tlg kazen aku 2 mggu ja kot kt Langkawi, selebihnya aku dok melahu di Aloq Star, sorg2, membe2 pn xdak, aku jadi drebar adik2 aku ja la sepanjang penganguran, aku x buat apa2 keja part time pn, kwn2 aku yg len ada jugak yg berdikari carik keja part time, aku x, huhu, aku dok tlg antaq amek adek2 aku ja la, lepas tuh sembang2 ngan tok aku, dok ulang p interview aja, huhu, mai Disember 2007, Innatech panggel aku kerja, Alhamdulillah.

Berkerja
Aku mula2 masuk Innatech, aku rasa agak janggal, x penah expect environment keja mcm ni, huhu, makin lama makin seronok, mula2 masuk kenal dgn Hafiz Aminuddin, Amrie, Habib, Ashraf, Kak Lieza, Kumar, Anas, Jess, of course Mr Tan ngan Mr Siva kena kenal, Abg Zul aku kenal lambat sket pasal dia outstation lama masa tuh, lama2 ada yg tukar kerja, ada pulak yg baru masuk kerja, Mazlan, Azlee, Fiza, Feisal, Farid, Dainuri. Skang aku masih serve Innatech, byk benda nk belajar, pengalaman nk ditimba, lepas ni apa plak untuk aku? Aku pn x tau..

HeavensDust - Before I Die

2008-07-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

A Japanese rock band with sentiment element, heh, they play traditional equipment, this particular song is the one I like the most from them, however they have evolve, currently with new lead woman singer, they still have the traditional music equipment though, worth checking out, n uhh, I make out the lyrics just by hearing, so expect misheard word, whatever,

Can't view? Click here

HeavensDust - Before I Die

The time has come
So I'll miss you
Life are touched
To her he fear
Take this pain
Beneath the floor
I'll back in place each of you become
For all the things once I've knew
Forgive me mother when I touched you

Before I die
ill take the sign
into the hard light
and pray for the sun

Before I die
I'll take the sign
Into the hard light
And pray for the sun

Before i die

The time has come
So I has to
Better go hide
But I touched you
Sorry to loose that patience with you
I'll back in place each of you become
For all the patience I've done through

FORGIVE ME MOTHER

Before I die
I'll take the sign
Into the hard light
And pray for the sun

Before I die
I'll take the sign
Into the hard light
And pray for the sun

BEFORE I DIE

Everywhere we get
Every single day
Every breath we had
Revert to me
This will get away
It will fall apart
I must spoken the truth
Cause the feeling of fear

Everywhere we get
Every single day
Every breath we had
Revert to me
This will get away
It will fall apart
I must spoken the truth
Cause the feeling of fear

Every move we make
Every single day
Every nights ahead
You were back to me
You will get to me
It will fall apart
With me

Before I die
I'll take the sign
Into the hard light
And pray for the sun

Before I die
I'll take the sign
Into the hard light
And pray for the sun

BEFORE I DIE
BEFORE I DIE
BEFORE I DIE!!!!

Bittersweet - Capital E

2008-07-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

One of our local independent band, I like this song so much, Britpop genre, quite rare in our local music scene, nevertheless, Bittersweet rocks, layan, n uhh, I didn't do the lyrics, get it from somewhere else. heh

X bleh view? Klik sini la

Bittersweet - Capital E

When I'm crying, You laughing,
You think that it has all been decided,
But it's all coming back to you,
You never realize,
You think it's alright.

You say I can't swim, but your drowning,
You think that it's all is been decided,
But you still hiding in your shoes,
You never try to walk,
You think it's alright.

Cause the days are coming early,
The sun is shining clearly,
We need a ride, To travel fast,
Just don't deny , Break the ice,
World's becoming lonely,
When pride just can't be print,
I can't decide.

You say I can't swim, But your drowning,
You think that it's all is been decided,
But you still hiding in your shoes,
You never try to walk,
You think it's alright.

Cause the days are coming early,
The sun is shining clearly,
We need a ride, To travel fast,
Just don't deny, Break the ice,
World's becoming lonely,
When pride just can't be print,
I can't decide.

Cause the days are coming early,
The sun is shining clearly,
We need a ride, To travel fast,
Just don't deny, Break the ice,
World's becoming lonely,
When pride just can't be print,
I can't decide.

Jolly Jumper - Siklus Tanpa Arah

2008-07-10T17:04:00.007+08:00

Layankan, emo band from Indonesia, yes I sometime resent band2 Indonesia, tp kalo best, aku layan, hoho

lirik aku tulis berdasarkan pendengaran, silap xpa kot?

X bleh view? Klik sini la

Jolly Jumper - Siklus Tanpa Arah

Terdiam,
Terjebak dlam ruang dan waktu,
Terayun dlm mimpi yg sepi
KU BENCI,
Sendiri,

Mencari makna hidup ini
Terus mencari,
????

Biar ku tentukan hidup matiku sendiri,
Jgn hiraukan,
ku telah lepaskan???

Perjalanan yg tergendala ??
Hilang arah yg xkn terkendali,
(KU BENCI),sendiri,
Mencari makna hidup ini,
Terus mencari,
Terbiar???

Biar ku tentukan hidup matiku sendiri,
Jangan hiraukan,
Ku telah lepaskan,

Biar ku tentukan hidup matiku sendiri,
Jangan hiraukan,
Ku telah lepaskan

Dan kini ku mencari,
Erti hidup ini,

Telah lama kucuba,
Hilangkan rasa hampa,
Semakin dalam kurasa,

Biar ku tentukan hidup matiku sendiri,
Jangan hiraukan,
Ku telah lepaskan,

Biar ku tentukan hidup matiku sendiri,
Jangan hiraukan,
Ku telah lepaskan,

Word Cloud

2008-07-10T13:02:00.002+08:00

Ini word cloud untuk bloq aku

heya

2008-07-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

saja nk test tag

Menjadi Pengguna Bijak (Edisi Jimat Petrol)

2008-07-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

Entry kali ni adalah kerana gesaan seorg rakan, dan kebanyakan suma idea dia dari dia, byk cara bleh kita usahakn utk jimat petrol ni, jom kita tinjau2kan

Pastikan Tayar Kereta Dalam Keadaan Terbaik
Kenderaan yg tayarnya kureng angin memerlukan lebih power utk bergerak, jadi ia menggunakan lebey bahan bakar.

Pastikan Minyak Pelincir Dalam Keadaan Terbaik
Enjin kenderaan yg x penah ditukar pelincirnya akan mggunakan lebey bahan bakar, contoh terbaik, lori2 pengankutan yg asapnya hitam amat, kenderaan selalu digunakan, enjin jarang servis.

Elakkan Selalu Memecut
Kepada mat2 rempit, xkira la rempit kereta atau motor, saya cadangkan bersara dripada pembuatan itu, kita start dgn memandu perlahan, biar org nikmati penampilah kenderaan anda pula, bukan stakat ke'tereran' memandu sahaja.

Elakkan Membrek Selalu
Pembuatan selalu membrek sebenarnya juga memakan petrol, kerana enjin dari pada keadaan perlahan dilajukan kembali, tp kalo dah nk langgar org, jgn x brek plak.

Jangan Overloadkan Kenderaan
Jangan lebihkan muatan kenderaan, lebih muatan, lebih penggunaan minyak

Ubah Cara Bergerak
Yg dulu naik kereta, skang naik motor, yg dulu naik motor, skang naik basikal, yg dulu naik basikal skang naik basikal lg la, basikal bukan pakai petrol pon, atau lebih ekstrem, suma jalan kaki

Guna Kenderaan Awam
Ini adalah extended version kepada Ubah Cara Bergerak, kalo jalan kaki, agak mustahil nk bergerak ke jarak yg agak jauh, contoh: KLCC – KLIA, so, guna kenderaan awam, ada tren, ada teksi, ada bas, ada beca, ada bot, ada sampan, ada kereta lembu(di tmpat2 tertentu), pilih yg boleh membantu ke destinasi

Kongsi Kenderaan
Kalo rakan serumah atau setaman bekerja ditempat yg sama mahupun lain2 tingkat atau lain2 banggunan, bolehlah berkongsi kenderaan, bukan takat kenderaan sahaja dikongsi, bayaran tol dan belian minyak petrol jugak boleh dikongsi, jimat kos

Rendahkan CC Kenderaan (dan ego sendiri)
Kalo skarang anda memandu BMW atau Mercedes yg berkapasiti enjin melebihi 2000cc, pandulah pula kenderaan anak perempuan anda yg pasti kapasiti enjinnya lebey rendah dari kenderaan anda, ingat, lebih rendah cc lebih rendah penggunaan petrol, kalo boleh, cari kenderaan yg kapasiti enjin yg hanya ratusan, contoh: Kancil -900cc, Honda EX5 –150cc

Gunakan Bahan Bakar Alternatif
Utk kenderaan petrol, Natural Gas for Vehicle (NGV) adalah bahan bakar alternatif yg mendapat sambutan, buat masa sekarang, harganya amat murah dan sering digunakan oleh industri pengangkutan terutama teksi dan logistik. Pemasangan sistem nya agak mahal, tetapi hanya satu kali pasang, berbaloi utk mereka yg byk menggunakan kenderaan. Tetapi, saya yakin harganya akan melonjak naik jika penggunaanya meningkat.

Gunakan Gadjet Penjimatan Minyak
Byk gadjet2 penjimatan minyak dipasaran sekarang, cari yg mana boleh diyakini, dan guna, tp use at your own risk. Saya x mo promote mana2 produk, saya berhaluan tengah dan takut kena backfire, haha. D:

Keluar Bila Perlu
Ini paleng penting, keluar bila perlu, bukan keluar bila mahu, tp boleh diguna pakai oleh mereka yg bekerja dirumah sahaja, untuk yg kerja diopis, mmg perlu keluar untuk keopis,

Menumpang Kenderaan Lain
Ini sesuatu yg amat berlainan dgn berkongsi kenderaan, anda boleh menumpang apa jua jenis kenderaan tanpa mengeluarkan apa2 perbelanjaan, jnji kena jadi muka tebal, dan harus diingat risiko yg mgkin dihadapi, nnt nak menumpang balek kerumah, jadi kes culik pulak, jd pilih org yg nk ditumpang dgn bijak dan berhati2, juga dinasihatkan, jgn menumpang org yg sama secara berkala, nnt mereka sakit hati, dan mula mengenakan bayaran, baru padan muka, :D

Guna Kenderaan Hybrid
Kenderaan Hybrid telah dibuktikan dpt menjimatkan petrol sehingga 30%, tetapi harga sebuah kenderaan Hybrid berharga lebih 300% dari harga kenderaan biasa, terpulang kepada pandangan pengguna, org kaya mgkin boleh segera mempraktikkan cadangan ini, tetapi bg org kaya, kenaikan harga bahan bakar mgkin bukan isu, saya pn x tahu, saya bukan org kaya

Ini saja yg mampu saya coretkan, mgkin anda apa ada2 cadangan lain? Sila tgglkan komen. Sekian

Kisah Karya Alam Sepi

2008-07-07T12:47:00.003+08:00

Ini bukan cerita wayang kulit,
Kisah karya alam sepi,
Tiada Adam, Tiada Hawa,
Tiada Taman, Tiada Syurga,
-XPDC : Berakit ke Langit-

Lagu ni ada impak kt diri aku skang, mengingatkn kita yg kita ni x hidup dlm dunia khayalan dan angan2, semua yg kita miliki ni dgn izin Allah dan dah tentulah dgn usaha kita. Kata kunci, usaha, kalo x berusaha mana bleh dpt rezeki, kalo kita x tanam pokok pisang, mcmana nk dpt buah pisang.

Kalu dulu kita mak bapa sara dan jaga, skang ni giliran kita plak jaga depa, giliran kita plak jaga adik2 kita, giliran kita plak jaga diri sendiri, nnt bila kita nk berkeluarga, tggungjwb makin bertambah, terutama bgi orang lelaki, jadi ketua rumah, sara isteri dan anak2, berat tggungjwb kita sebagai bapa nnt, kalo isteri dan anak2 xelok, kita yg akan dipersoalkan, mcmana kita sebagai ketua keluarga didik keluarga, para isteri plak, kena ikot ckp suami, selagi x langgar hukum agama, kalo membantah bleh jadi durhaka, berat tuh

hidup zaman sekarang ni penuh dgn cabaran, terlalu byk pengaruh luar, hukum agama byk orang buat acuh x acuh saja, kita bleh nampak, kdg2 dikalangan rakan2 kita, malah dlm keluarga kita sendiri, malah hukum yg kecik2 trus diabaikan, yg paling menakutkan skang ni ialah kesalahan sosialisme, kita x memandang dari segi undang2 dan perlembagaan negara, yg kita nk tegakkan ni dari skop agama kita sendiri, skang di mana2 bleh nampak, yg paling ketara, berpasangan, bukan takat berpegang tgn, bukan kita xtau yg hukum dia haram, tp kita buat2 xtau, lagi bertatu, bertindik yg menyerupai agama lain, kaler rambut, bukan masalah material yg kita pakai itu halal atau haram, pembuatan tuh sendiri dah haram, so xpayah lah nk persoalkan material yg dipakai, kaum hawa plak, aurat, cukur kening, bulu kaki, suma nk memperagakan diri jd jamahan mereka yg bernafsu sadis, bukan kita tak tau, saja kita buat2 xtau, yg lelaki pulak suka tgk, tambah la dosa yg mgkin dah bertimbun2, byk lagi kalo nk tulis, tp cukup takat ni, mgkin dah byk menyengat mereka yg membaca? Padan muka. Moga ini jd peringatan kt diri aku juga.

Jadi, kita kena berusaha, bukan saja mencari rezeki, tp juga untuk dpt kerestuan Allah. Ramai org akan kata leceh, ya, tp kena usaha, usaha memperbaiki diri sendiri, usaha menjauhi segala dosa, usaha, jgn usaha kearah kejahatan sudah, mcm aku mula2 kata, nk buah pisang, tanam pokok dia dulu, nk bg pokok subur, bajailah ia selalu, konsep ni boleh diguna pakai dlm kehidupan, aku yakin sapa yg membaca ni sgt rasional dan mampu berpikir, kalo x paham, usaha lah untuk memahami.

aku x mau diri aku nnt lepas dihisab, aku diaibkan dipadang Masyar, aku x mau nnt selepas dihisab, keluarga aku diaibkan dipadang Masyar, aku x mau nnt selepas dihisab, sahabat2 aku diaibkan dipadang Masyar, aku bukan para Nabi, aku bukan Wali Allah, aku ada kecacatan dan kelemahan sendiri, aku akan usaha memperbaiki, mcm kawan aku pernah kata, 'kita x penah terlalu muda untuk membuat dosa, dan kita x pernah terlalu tua untuk bertaubat', sebelum kita meninggalkan dunia, sebelum jasad dimamah bumi, usaha lah untuk jadi baik, manusia mmg x sempurna, tp usaha lah agar kita jadi golongan yg akan dikanan kan dibwah naungan Allah, InsyaAllah

Couragueos Insanity?

2008-07-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

So, kenapa Courageous Insanity? Sebab dlm alam cyber ni lah kita mampu dan buleh buat benda2 yg kita x mampu atau buleh buat dekat alam nyata. Hehe. Layankan cerpen yg penat aku coretkan, adakah ia berdasarkan cerita benar, pengalaman sendiri atau cuma rekaan semata2? Itu terpulang kepada pembaca, heheh

Kay agak sebok hari itu, dia kehulu kehilir dgn komputer bimbitnya, pihak2 pengurusan dan pemilik projek serta pelanggan semua menampakkan kekecewaan, ini adalah biasa bg seseorang yg berjawatan mcm Kay, semua permintaan terpaksa diakui walaupon x semesti ditunaikan, kadang2 Kay letih dgn kerjaya dia, tp apa nk buat, cari mkn

hari ini adalah hari Kay membuat latihan penggunaan terhadap implimentasi projeknya, tp ada masalah teknikal, x terkejar dia nk membaik pulih masalah yg dihadapi,

'ades, hari nk testing ni la ada problem, apa malang naseb aku ni' cemuh Kay didalam hati

pengurusan, pemilik dan pelanggan semua duduk di kafeteria menunggu masalah selesai, Kay dan rakan sejawat kehulu kehilir dan sebok membuat panggilan, mengharap yg projek ni boleh diselesaikan harini, lg cepat selesai latihan penggunaan, lg cepat dpt bayaran, sedang Kay sebok berulang alik, ada pulak sekumpulan manusia yg x kenal erti kemanusiaan, beberapa kali dia memanggil Kay, Kay abaikan mereka kerana mereka bukan ada kepentingan apa2 dgn Kay, makin lama, mereka makin meninggi suara memanggil Kay,

'oi! Mat, meh la sini kejap, ada benda nk tanya ni,' ujar pemuda berambut separa afro itu.

'eh, nak tanya aku, mai la sini, paggel aku p sana plak, apa igt aku waiter ka?' cemuh Kay didalam hati dgn loghat utaranya

Kay terus dgn tugasan dia. Makin lama, mamat berambut separa afro tuh makin lantang bersuara, kdg2 keluar ayat2 yg agak x sedap didengar, rakan2 dlm kumpulan mereka pula asik bergelak ketawa, menenyebabkan mamat berambut separa afro itu makin galak dgn kelakuannya,

'ceh mat, apa kau igt kau penting sgt? Baek ko dtg sini cepat, aku nak tanya sikit' lantang mamat separa afro tuh berkata2

keegoan mamat berambut separa afro itu sampai tahap tertinggi, lontaran ayat2 nya diikuti dengan kata2 kesat. Pengurusan, pemilik projek dan pelanggan hanya melihat sahaja, mereka meninjau mcm mana Kay nk layan org mcm mamat separa afro tuh,

Kay berjalan kearah meja yg diduduki pihak pengurusan, dia meletakkan komputer bimbitnya disitu, dia mengorak langkah kearah kumpulan mamat rambut separa afro tuh, dari jauh terdgr dia berkata2,

'tau pn takut, cepat sikit la jalan tuh, aku nk tanya benda ni, lembab' ujar mamat separa afro itu, diikuti gelak tawa rakan2 kumpulannya.

Kay rasa langkahnya menuju ke kumpulan mereka agak panjang, Kay rasa jarak antara meja mereka agak jauh, Kay terus mengorak langkah, Kay merasakn perjalanannya terlalu lama, Kay resah, Kay mennyisir rambutnya kebelankang dgn tgn kiri, kemudia Kay menyisir rambutnya kebelakang dgn tangan kanan, Kay merasakan jarak sgt jauh, walaupun semakin menghampiri, tetapi Kay merasakan jaraknya amat jauh, setelah berada didepan meja kumpulan mamat berambut separa afro itu, dia seperti terdgr mamat tuh berkata2

'hah, ni, aku nak tany.......' masa bagaikan terhenti seketika

itu saja yg Kay dgr, selainnya hanya terdgr bunyi bingit yg memekakkan telinga, Kay makin resah, pandangan Kay fokus kepada mamat berambut separa afro itu, Kay nampak gerakan bibir mamat separa afro itu, tp dia x mendgr apa2, Kay tahu mamat itu cuba menyampaikan sesuatu, ttp Kay mengabaikannya, Kay menanggalkan cermin matanya, Kay memegang kolar baju mamat separa afro itu, Kay menariknya naik dari kedudukan, kiri mereka berdua bertentang mata, Kay tenung mamat separa afro itu, segala2 masih bingit memekakkan telinga, nafsu amarah menguasai rasionalisme, Kay sudah x peduli apa yg akan terjadi nanti,

Kay tenung mamat separa afro itu, dlm fikirannya, Kay mencemuh topi yg dipakainya, Kay mencemuh rambut kerinting2 kecil diatas kepalanya, Kay mencemuh pilihan pakainya, Kay mencemuh segala2 tntang mamat separa afro itu, lantas Kay melontarkan hantukan kepala yg padu tepat ke batang hidung mamat berambut separa afro itu, *dush*, hidung mamat itu berdarah merah, darah mengalir tanpa henti, rakan2 kumpulan mamat itu lantas berdiri mengelakkan diri, x dipertahankan rakannya yg cedera, mgkin takut mereka menerima nasib yg sama

'hah, ni aku nak tany........arghhhhhhh' masa bagaikan bergerak semula

segala2 berlaku dlm sejenak masa, mamat separa afro itu terduduk x terkata apa, wajahnya yg penuh keegoan td bertukar menjadi resah ketakutan, Kay terus merenung mereka didalam kumpulan itu, seorang demi seorang, sekumpulan mereka resah, kelu x terkata, mgkin mereka x mengagak ini akan berlaku,

'kalo nk bertanya, datang cari aku, bukan aku datang mai sini' ujar Kay perlahan, mamat separa afro dan kumpulannya angguk tanda memahami, mereka masih kelu x berkata2

Kay mengorak langkah pergi, melangkah kearah meja yg diduduki oleh pengurusan, pemilik projek dan pelanggan tadi. Kesemua meraka agak terkejut dgn tindakan Kay, mereka x pernah melihat Kay bertindak diluar rasionalisme dan intelektualnya,

sejak hari itu, kehidupan kerjaya Kay agak berubah, dia tidak lagi diarah melakukan benda2 yg diluar skop tugasannya, semua org pn semakin berhati2 dgn tgkah laku dan percakapan mereka dgn Kay, adakah Kay senang dgn layanan serba baru ini? Itu xdapat dipastikan, yg pasti, Kay merasakan dia melalukan benda yg benar, patutkah Kay bertindak demikian? Apakah soalan yg mahu ditanyakan oleh mamat itu pada hari kejadian? Kay masih ketapak projek, apabila terserempak dgn kumpulan mamat separa afro itu, mereka menjauhi Kay. Kay x merasa terabai, mcm Kay mula2 kata, mereka xberkepentingan pn dlam kehidupan Kay. Heh.

Moral: Pantau dan dengar sebelum ambil tindakan, hehe

COMMENTS, COMMENTS!!

2008-07-04T05:47:00.002+08:00

wohoo, after strugling the whole night, finally, my 3rd party comment box is up and running, still under probation period though. we'll see what happens, hehe,

Karutnya Media, Bodohnya Kita?

2008-06-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

arini nk menulis skit, tentang kelebihmahuan, or kesukaan setiap individu dgn media yg mereka utamakan, pg td, aku beratur kt kaunter nk beli minyak, org agak ramai, masa beratur tuh, byk jugak org kita beli tabloid pilihan utama warga Malaysia, yes, Harian Metro, heh, ramai, bg aku, Harian Metro adalah akhbar tabloid yg dipenuhi dgn aktikel2 sampah, ok, mgkin ada yg kata akhbar2 lain dah dicemari pengaruh politik, or lebih tepat aku kata, dibayar utk melebihkan satu2 pihak, tp, merujuk kepada tajuk muka depan akhbar bertarikh 30 Jun 2008, Utusan Malaysia, byk cerita pasal kes sodomi DSAI, manakala, Harian Metro, berita pasal pembedahan selaput dara? Apa ni? Dan Harian Metro jd pilihan warga Malaysia terutama bangsa Melayu golongan bawahan dan pertengahan, dari segi intelektual dan mentaliti, bukan dari segi status dan kedudukan. Kita bagai diletakkan dibawah tapak kasut sendiri. Huh, mmg, NSTP Group ada dua lagi akhbar utama, iaitu Berita Harian dan News Strait Time, tp, Harian Metro yg merupakan kontribusi jualan utama kepada NSTP Group, sedih bukan?

Masalahnya, kita nak anak2 Melayu menerajui masa depan, tp dgn media massa yg mcm ni, disuntik dgn racun2 sosialisme, aku berani kata, tahap intelektual anak2 muda xkan pergi jauh mana, jgn nk kata akhbar2 lain pn sama, jgn nak berbalah, cuma aku rasa pendedahan Harian Metro tuh bg aku, x perlu pn, aku rasa informasi mcm tuh bleh kita dapatkan dri media alternatif seperti melalui artikel, majalah atau buku. Yg malangnya, akhbar tabloid lah yg jd pilihan warga Malaysia terutama bangsa Melayu. Itu saja dah dedahkan betapa rendahnya mentaliti bangsa aku ni, perlukah aku bersedih? Aku jijik dgn semua ni.

Pilih lah apa yg kita nk baca, jgn la rendahkan maruah sendiri. Daripada dok baca Harian Metro, baek baca Dragon Ball, haha. Aku x kata salah baca artikel Harian Metro, aku cuma nk pesan, jgn baca Harian Metro saja, baca jugak yg lain2, ini syok dok baca Harian Metro, benda2 lain kita abaikan? Baca semua, yg mana buleh, baca, jgn biarkan artikel mcm dlam Harian Metro harini meracuni minda anda dan anak2 anda, kalo mak bapak ampa bwk balek Harian Metro ja hari2, sepak pungkuq depa, soh depa bli yg laen2 jugak, xpon ampa sendiri yg p beli, xkan ampa mau adek pompuan yg baru darjah empat baca pasal selaput dara? Kan? Pikirkan lah, aku baca Harian Metro jugak, tp aku x berenti kt situ, ok? Sekian, ludah racun sosialisme yg merosak minda, ludah kegemelutan dan konspirasi politik yg akan hangat dua tiga mggu ni, ini semua boleh dikira sebagai sampah jugak, amek dan buang,

Episod 2 : Pembahagian Subsidi yg Amat Gila

2008-06-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

yosse, igt lagi janji aku beberapa mggu lepas? Yes, ini sambungan kepada rentetan kenaikan harga minyak, heheh, dah lama aku plan nk tulis, cuma xdak perasaan ja, so arini smbil bermalas2an, aku tabahkan hari untuk mengorak jari jemari aku menaip entry yg aku anggap, ramai dah naik meluat mendengarnya, ahak,

so, subsidi diberi semula, dlm bentuk wang tunai, kenderaan biasa bwh 2000cc n 4wd bwh 2500cc layak dapat subsidi RM625 setaun, motor plak dpt RM150 smpai bapa cc ntah, itu aku x amek peduli sgt. Heheh, dgr cash money, suma umat manusia warga malaysia overjoyed, nih la aku kata depa ni desperate nk puaskan hati suma org, hoho, depa? Depa la, ampa tau la depa sapa. Lepas pengumuman bayaran balek dibuat, berpusu2 org p beratur nk collect duit subsidi, collect cash adalah satu yg agak gila aku kata, pos opis plak kena dok stok cash byk2 sebab nak bayaq subsidi, hoho, kalo la org p rompak pos office pg2 seblom depa mula beroperasi? Kita pn well aware, pos opis ni security x mcm bank, lgpon depa stok nonsequential unmark punya cash, kalo kena jack, for sure kaya raya para perompak itu, ahak, ini bukan perkara main2 ok, soon, something bound to happen, until today, kita xdak dgr apa berita pn, Alhamdulillah la, tp still kena jga2,

lgpn, dgn segala mcm ebanking yg skang ni ada, segala bill2 aku dok setel online, xpenah beratur dah nk bayaq bill, suma selesai online, idea bangang depa plak, kita kena p beratur nk collect subsidi, hoho, tp cash punya pasai, 1st saturday tuh, ampa igt g? Mcm gila jdnya kt pos2 opis seluruh negara. Haha, power of the money, sure, ada yg memerlukan duit tunai, tp kebanyakannya hanya mahukan duit tunai, x perlu sgt pn. Tp marah kt kerajaan punya pasai, amek p la, keperluan dan kemahuan adalah satu yg berbeza, anda perlu bernafas utk hidup, anda mahu mkn sedap2 sebab nafsu, ok?

Jugak, aku rasa pemberian subsidi patut lebih perpandukan penggunaan, bukan berpandukan berapa byk kenderaan aku miliki, setuju? Kalo aku ada kreta tokwan aku yg cukai jln dia x penah renew smpai sama umur ngan aku, tup2 lepas nk bg bayaran tunai, aku bleh p renew roadtax aku dan collect cash, haha, rompakan subsidi secara x terus, tp depa yg nak bg, depa x penah pkir ka benda2 cmni? Kalo org yg ada 70 kereta (jumlah yg agak melampau, tp mgkin berlaku), dan kebanyakannya disimpan sebagai koleksi (mgkin diguna secara berkala), dia bleh collect 70 x 625, kira sendri, kegilaan yg terang2 nampak, awat depa x pernah terfikir benda2 cmni? Lgpn, aku amat pasti yg pembayaran balik subsidi tunai ni x mencukupi keperluan mana2 pihak, kdg2 aku pn guna minyak lebey dri subsidi yg depa dok bg (semak entry bertajuk Rentetan Kenaikan Harga Minyak), huhu, Ini suma buat keputusan terburu2, n pak2 turut yg x berani nk ckp apa2, heh, keputusan mcm ni dah mcm kapitalisme, bukan lg demokratik, apa, depa x isukan benda2 mcm ni dlm dewan rakyat kah? Depa sembang carut apa dlm tuh?

lgpn, kalo lah betoi nk bantu rakyat, kalo kita entiled utk dpt cash subsidi tuh, x buleh depa tolak cukai jalan kreta aku? X payah aku dok p renew utk tiap2 taun, depa bleh tolak income tax, n apa2 lg cukai yg aku kena bayaq, aku leh paham mekanisme perlaksanaan akan jd rumit, tp, pemberian subsidi tunai mcm skang ni x selesaikan apa2 masalah, tmbh pulak aku dgr mcm2 khabar angin yg pemberian subsidi tunai ni menguntungkan pihak2 tertentu, aku tatau plak tang mana yg leh untung, atau hanya sekadar khabar angin pihak2 yg anti kerajaan, aku x tuduh sapa2, kalo ada kebenarannya, awat takut nak dedahkan? Takut ampa punya position n kepentingan di kompromi? Hah, igtlah, ampa tau berita betoi, tp dok senyap2, sama mcm bersubahat, so xyah nk kondem mana2 pihak, pasai ampa under the same guilt level, heh,

n yg paling kureng menyenangkan, mula2 aku dipahamkan yg subsidi tunai ni diberi secara tahunan, tp ada pihak yg kata, pembayaran balik tunai ni hanya satu kali, sapa2 tau kebenaran berita ni? Enlighten me, n I'm out.

New Template, yosh

2008-06-29T11:02:00.001+08:00

yossa, templates updated, haha, nice eh? thanx to Dancing Sheep, you'll always be in my heart, few amendment to be made later on, nk edit gambaq sket, eheh,

Rentetan Kenaikan Harga Minyak

2008-06-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

almost 3 minggu harga minyak naik, and harini dah hari keberapa depa bayaq subsidi? Lost count, depa bukak jugak hari ahad ek? Ahak, desperately trying to satisfy everone's need. Not gonna happen. Increasing the level of hate-o-meter toward them, ah hell, you guys know fairly well, this 'them' iam referring too. And yes, damn them. Hah. So, this entry aku saja nk post general economical breakdown for those depending direly on bahan bakar petrol yg mmg membakar. Hoh

let us stick to these facts

1. My car consume like 12 litre per 100 kilometer, its not an exact figure, but its almost like that

2. Current petrol price, RM2.70 perlitre, thus making us get 18.6 litre for every RM50

3. Previous petrol price, RM1.92 perlitre, thus making us get 26 litre for every RM50

4. Making a difference of RM0.78 perlitre.

5. We are being subsidize by RM625 per year for every car lesser than 2.0cc, im entitled to this.

6. After doing several calculation, I could say my average expenditure on petrol is RM400 per month, making it a total of 8 times RM50 fillup in a month. Note that it was all before the price hike.

And lets make an assumption,

lessay I just travel to and fro my office everyday, cost me like RM20 on petrol per week to make up for a total of RM100 for five weeks (a month). This figure are much2 lesser than my average expenditure though. And ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN. Except if I walk though. Heh

so for the current petrol price, take this as the best case scenario, RM100 per month for petrol, still

we spend RM1200 per year. And we are subsidized by RM625 per year, making the difference RM1200-RM625 = RM575, we have still to cover.

and the litre we get for RM1200

RM1200/RM2.7perlitre = 444litre

with the old subsidized price of RM1.92, we get to pay

444litre x RM1.92 = RM852.48 per year

the current price make we pay RM347 more per year than the previous price even on the best case scenario.

As for the subsidized value of RM625 per year, it could cover up to only 231.4 litre per year. What about the rest 212.52 litre? Yes. THAT is the amount we have to pay on our own. And yes, it is RM575 per year now. Heh. Note that this is the best case scenario for a car owner. Still we're being robbed.

So they say, walk, or take public transport, or ride a bike, or naik beca, whatever, this is only made possible if our destination is near our drop out point. It is impossible to commute on public transportation for those that had to travel around. And think about those doing logistic, courier, stockist, busses, taxi even, they rely on petrol to get the job done. So? Thinking that there are no breakeven point in all these matter make me wanna puke. Huh. Fuel price hike are making a chain reaction to everything. Everything went on a hike, except fuel consumption itself. It went down by 30%, good for those who could afford to make a change. Rob the gov subsidy, and go on public transport. Haha. Its our right to do so. Wait for my next episode of 'Rentetan Kenaikan Harga Minyak : Episod 2' heh.

Bottom to top? Top to bottom?

2007-12-12T10:39:00.000+08:00

2^nd week for me serving Innatech. Haha, this all seem like a joke to me, even masa aku dok praktikel kat IPTURA lg aku rasa mcm aku buat keja. At least over there I know what I'm suppose to do. Kat sini aku jd mcm rusa masuk kampung, ikot ja apa org ckp, x yah mimpi la nak bersuara. Bukak mulut kutuk2 org bleh aa, haha, demmit. Hmm, maybe because they think I'm still green, budak baru la katakan, haha, fak. Either way, I feel fine being treated like this though, they would never know how I really am, heheh, diselubungi misteri gitu, haha. Not to mention aku ngan sorg budak lg is the youngest here, yep, 22 is the youngest, huhu, even diorg nye storekeeper yg nampak cm 16 tuh dah actually 25, dem. Huhu. Seb bek aku x cucuk jarum lg, XD. Eh, xleh2, aku kene diselubungi misteri, mana bleh cucuk2 jarum org kompeni sendri, xmo2,

N arini aku heard something new, post aku rupanya xyah travel sgt, kdg2 ja, rupa2nya yg aku dok folo slalu ni dak2 technical customer support, phew!! am I reLIEved? Am I? Duh. Hah. Hari ni kali ke2 aku rasa nak chow dari sini, bosan cam aram, aku pn tatau la, aku mmg nak wt network, tp aku never expect things to be like this, shiet.

Crime with protection!

2007-12-06T10:35:00.000+08:00

Its only the 1^st working week for me, but, goddamn, aku dah spend half yg aku ada, demmit. Aku ada buat rough monthly spending estimation, and I don't like it a bit, shit.

See, keja aku ni kena byk travel, byk travel, byk spending, byk spending, byk abeh duit, duit abeh, parah ah. Lessay aku dpt 1000 a month, k? Ini bukan the real payment yg aku dpt, just an example, I make 1000 a month, and aku spend +-300 utk travel, travel ni aku just include minyak and toll, aku x include site parking, then lessay aku spend 10 utk mkn sehari, sebulan +-300 kan? N parking utk tmpat keja, lessay 5 perday, working days ada 20 hari ja sebulan, so total ada dlm 100 btoi? Kalo pkai monthly pass pn dah 80 sebulan, so total sebulan for the worst case scenario, 300+300+100 = 700++, gaji 1000, spend 700++, tggal 300++ ja, walopn spending utk travel bleh claim, aku just ada 600++ ja sebulan, sewa? bill api ayaq? Keta? PTPTN? EPF? Lain2?

Jem, kalo cmni la, parah beb, xdan aku nk simpan duit pn, demmit, xdan smpai tgh bulan duit dah xdak, tggu claim? Huhu, bulan depan baru dpt balek, bulan ni aku nk mkn apa? Aku suka keja sini, keja pn fun, membe2 ramai, bos ja kureng sket, tp aku x tahan spending duit kt sini, like shit ah, ni aku dok tulih ni ngn perot kosong, lapaq, nak cut cost punya pasai, duit dah xdak, tggu claim bulan dpan ah baru dpt, demmit, jem ah cani, bleh ka aku tahan dok sini lama2? Aku heran cana memembe n kazen2 aku leh survive sini, depa gaji five figures kot?, haih, saket2. Spending money for other things when u need it most is like being blood sucked out by a vampire, and get pissed by it in the face summore. FCKITAL! I am aut..like always. Dolla, dolla, dolla bill ya'll, they rule everything. Ex Nihilo Nihil.

Hollywood Swingers

2007-10-03T06:30:00.000+08:00

Aku rasa macam paham kenapa Amy Search naik hangin ngan sesetengah stesyen radio swata yg dikatakan meminggirkan artis tempatan, huhu, sapa x paneh kalo kita dah lama ‘berniaga’ kat sini tiba2 ada org luar dtg bukak gerai seblah kita plak kan? aku bleh paham kenapa dia terasa cmtu, bg aku apa yg dia bisingkan sgt tuh dah mcm personal vengeance plak, rasa terancam, tp x leh nak wat apa2 pasai hal tuh, so, bising ja la, haha,

Amy Search sendri sebut band Indon menguasai industri musik kita. Aku mmg stuju ngan idea dia ni, mmg aku pn rasa kejadahnya suma ini kan, apa x dak band Malaysia dah ka? Aku pn x kesah sgt ampa nak dgr lagu depa, aku pn lg byak minat band luar, huhu, tp xyah la smpai bg anugerah, kan? depa nak anugerah, p amek kat tmpat sendiri aa, apapn, tindakan pakcik rock kita sampai libatkan menteri mmg x patut sgt, periuk nasi ang, pandai2 jaga aa, kan?

Lgpon, pakcik Amy kita ni, hidup dgn bayang band dia dulu, yeah, Search, kalo org sebut rocker Amy, org x kenai, org kena sebut Amy Search baru org tau sapa, haha, Well, personally, aku nak kata, maybe, just maybe, famili dia pn da x sapot dia dah, asek pasang lagu Indon ja, tuh yg dia naik angin sgt2 tuh, haha, kamon la Pakcik Amy, bear with it, rock and roll is dead nowadays, don’t get me wrong though, aku layan rock, tp kalo org len x layan, dah x guna gak, kan? haha, org dah x layan rock, so rockers jd cam spesis terancam aa, haha, neway, pakcik Amy, org dah x pakai jaket leather dah zaman ni, haha. La nih zaman hiphop ngan goth, hmm, mmg la rock dipinggirkan, kesian, heh, tp x pa, aku layan lagi lagu Amy ngan Bienda, Syurga Neraka. Jgn riso pakcik Amy, aku dgr lg lagu ang, tp satu ni ja la, hahah.

Fergalicious anyone? hah..

2007-10-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

you see, i'm going through 80's hits nowadays, and I came across this song Supersonics by JJ Fad, and i thought, "hey, this beat is familiar", so I went through all pop song i have, and yeah, i hit the jackpot, the beat almost the same as Fergie's Fergalicious, hoho, and i thought that Fergie's beat was unique even though her song is completely mindless, and i went through the critics bout her debut album, The Duthess, some critics even mention bout the rip off, hoho, hell, even the intro beat, the 'four, tres, two, uno' is a loaner from Afro-Rican's Give Me All You Got, i don't know whether they give credits to these people or not, hell, come to think bout it, even Fergie's hits single is a nursery rhymes rip off, haha, yeah, London Bridge, so i guess its ok for them though, heh, listen to the songs if you didn' t believe me, heh, Fergilicious eh?

Mencari seorang teman

2007-05-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

ok, jgn hilang tumpuan, haha, aku nak cari seseorang yg nak ganti tempat aku kat umah ni, untuk mengetahui dgn lebey lanjut sila baca dibawah,

Alamat: No 6, Jln D2, Taman Dahlia

Sewa : RM112.50, x termasuk bill air dan letrik dan astro dan streamyx. Secara purata bayaran utk bill air dan letrik dan streamyx dan astro, ialah RM40, jadi, secara purata, sebulan kene bayar RM112.50 + RM40 = RM152.50, bill telepon xde, pakai enset sudah, kalo ade pakai, bil telepon akan dicaj secara individu

Kriteria: Seorang lelaki Muslim Melayu, yang agak berhemah, hehe

Keadaan rumah: Rumah ok, ade air, ade letrik, ade streamyx, ade astro, ade sofa, ade TV, ade XBOX, ade mesin basuh, ade peti ais, ade dapur, ade kuali, ade pinggan mangkok, ade cawan plastik, ade ruang tamu, ade org, haha,

Informasi tambahan: bilik paleng besar, skang 3 org je duduk dlm bilik tuh, perabot kitorang beli sendri sume, aku ade katil, 2 meja stadi, satu almari baju, ngan satu almari 3 tingkat, aku akan jual la sume tuh kat korang, jual murah je, jgn risao, almari baju ngan satu meja stadi dah kene book ngan rakan serumah skarang, ape lagi aa? hmm, aa, jalan kaki ke MMU amek mase 3 menet, dekat je, aa lg, kunci aku bg. aku x caj nye.

Org untuk dihubungi: YM atau emel aku kat elevenblackchildren@yahoo.com, hp aku, 0194286447, 0174607780, nama aku Hafiz

Bila bleh masuk? hmm, Jun, seblom abes sem nih da bleh masuk barang aa kot,

Rette mich?

2007-04-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hmm, I always told people that song is not just song; it is a form or art that often reflected people’s expression, I love song that express felling such as sorrow, death, dispel, you know, the other side of songs, the one that not many are aware of.

Last two days, my grandma’s younger brother had passed away, hope he is among the faithful of all. The things is, I had never felt like I lost anything. I was good with him, nothing crucial, I like him better than I like my grandma though, hehe. But, when my father called to told me bout it, I was like, “owh, ok” and that’s it. Heh, I meant, how cold hearted can I be? I’ve lost someone, my relatives, but I didn’t felt much. Maybe this is the reason why people said I’m somewhat hard cold type of person. But I never seen through it though, and know I’m aware why, hehe. After I gave it a thought, then only I realize my mistake, and feels bad bout it. I dunno what I’ve become, after all these living years. Ahhhh. I need to rescue me from myself, I need someone to rescue me from this darkness within. This darkness and coldness I once loved, but now, I couldn’t bear with it anymore, I need to be rescued, I would not wanted to be soaked with darkness anymore. Would someone lend me a hand? Would anybody rescue me? Rescue me from the reign that struggled to built and hold?

And, uhh, Al-Fatihah to Tok Su Ii, may you be among the faithful of all. Hope I won’t forget you as ease.

Tiap kali.....

2007-04-03T14:11:00.000+08:00

Tiap hari ku kian jelik,
Buat ramai orang rasa pelik,

Tiap kali ku kian resah,
Buat ramai orang rasa susah,

Tiap masa ku kian lupa,
Buat ramai orang masam muka,

Tiap cara ku kian gila,
Buat ramai orang kata "macam ni la",

Tiap hari ku kian sakit,
Orang yg mendampingi kian sikit,

Tiap kali ku kian duka,
Ada juga orang yang rasa suka,

Tiap masa ku kian pekak,
Orang kena cakap macam nak terkeluar anak tekak,

Tiap cara ku kian bisu,
Orang cakap pun dah aku keliru,

Hitung nyawa yang kian singkat,
Bila aku nak bebetul taubat?

Hitung kiamat yang kian dekat,
Nanti ku takut nak jumpa malaikat,

Hitung hari aku sendiri,
Lagi panjang dari hayat bebiri,

Tiap hari,
Tiap kali,

Tiap masa,
Tiap cara,

Adakah aku suka begini?
Soalnya pada diri sendiri,

Adakah aku ingin terus begini?
Aku mahu anjakan tapak kediri,

Sampai bila aku terus begini?
Perlukah aku ubah diri?
Perlukah aku atur ciri?
Perlukah aku lari?
Perlukah.....?

Tiap hari,
Tiap kali,
Tiap masa,
Tiap cara,

Aku suka.

Apa yang orang lain boleh kata?
Katalah apa yang mereka suka.

Mungkin aku akan ambil peduli,
Mungkin aku sisihkan kesisi,

Yang pasti,

Tiap hari,
Tiap kali,
Tiap masa,
Tiap cara,

Aku suka.

Tiap kali ku kian sunyi,
Aku ingin lari bersembunyi,
Diiringi tari nyanyi,
Dengan orang yang disayangi,
Sendiri.
Lagi.

Another chapter’s ending?

2007-02-22T04:30:00.000+08:00

Salam. Ahhh, been a while since I mess around with this bloq, heheh, hmm, so anything new? Heheh, for me, nothing’s new, just leading a bending life, heh, just hoping so it wouldn’t break though. I wanna post up something before the CNY, but uhh, nothing interesting to be told, so it resulted to this. Heheh, better than never I guess.

It’s already morning, been reading comix all day long, just finish reading Battle Royale, hehe, not a good bedtime stories though, If you get what I meant, haha, hmm, by reading this stuff, it kept me wondering, do we humans like that? I mean, feelings, we falls for it do we? Whatever kind of feelings, fear, hate, happy, not happy, passion, obsession, hurt, impaired, arrogant, ignorant, compassion, shabby, selflessness, emptiness, lonely all that kinda things, we do fall for it, izzit? If we do so, why would we have this so called ‘feelings’? We might be leading a better life without it, don’t we? And mind you, that’s not the main question here.

While leading our life, we had encountered many things, learnt much, met many people, too many to abide I might say, and it wouldn’t end here and now, it’s going on, on and on, till its time. So, uhm, while doing so, we make friends, best friends, regular friends, friend’s friend, special friends, so-so friends, get the picture yet? So, why do we make friends? Izzit for comfort? For securities? For assurance? For acknowledgement? Or for just being occupied? And so, what we take friends for? Person? Necessities? Asset? Compensation? And, uhh, don’t make me the bad guy here, I’m questioning all these so I wouldn’t forget where I stand on in this huge chessboard. Others may be pushing me around like a pawn, or I might make a step like a knight, who may know?

Also, I like to stress out, not all are like you, ok, maybe some would say using ‘you’ is inappropriate, it was like blaming others, rite? Huhu, I do think so, ok, revised, not all are like us, using ‘us’ would make us on the same guilty level eh? Heheh, or to be better, not all are like what we think it is, and to be best, some of us are thinking alike, similar, how similar? We best root that answer ourselves, individually.

You see, for me, feelings are like perceptions, feelings are quite obscured, flexible, not fixed, each people had their own perception for anything, rite? As so feelings are, and please do not count out that these two can also be fabricated, masqueraded, that what make feelings somewhat deceptive, unreliable. I’m not talking bout others feeling upon us, nope, I’m talking bout our feelings upon others, and by others, I didn’t meant the people that’s always around you. Simple example, you saw somebody stealing food, what would you say bout that guy? “OOHH! There’s a bad guy” and that’s hate, pop out just instantly from your head. Or rather you would say “maybe he’s hungry and got no money” and that’s sympathy, pop out just like that. Hypothetically, what you had thought, represent where you put yourself in this massive chessboard of world. And by challenging ourselves with these, we would know where we put ourselves and where we actually stand on. It’s not entirely true, but most of the time, it’s proven to be correct, try it yourself, you’ll know what I meant.

And so, we tend to make good friends with people we had gained trust. By trust, I meant those we can cope up with, those who make you feel wanted, those who acknowledge you, those you feel safe with, those who you can talk to. So we see here, friends are being tampered by feelings, lost of feeling mean lost of friends. I’ve seen many, but maybe not enough for me to make up to a conclusion, but for what I’ve seen, that is somewhat true. And do not count out for the deceptive part, which is most dangerous of all, like a chained cat waiting for a dying rat, waiting for the prey to drop inside the feeding bowl, and don’t be surprised when we are stabbed at the back and broken a neck at that. Hehe, so, last question for this posting, where do YOU stand on? Or rather, where do YOU put yourself at? Am I defying the question from myself? Nope, I’ve had my answers, do you? As always, I’m gone. Better off with these feeling for now I guess, that’s what had driven me to writing all these. Heheh.

One step away

2007-02-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

Salam. Hmm. Dah bukak sem pon, huhu, cepat sungguh masa berlalu, or aku ja byk melalukan masa cmtu ja? Ahaha, aku rasa pilihan kedua tuh paling tepat untuk aku, Alhamdulillah result aku pass suma, pass mmg stakat pass ja la, huahua, pointer x yah crita la, nak sebut pon segan, adeh. Huhu.

Hopefully sem ni akan jadi sem last aku kat sini, aku pon nak cuba bekerjaya plak, hehe, dak2 sebaya aku ramai dah yg dok gheja, aku pon nak gak buat duit sendri kan? hehe, walopon aku rasa best dah nak abeh stadi, tp aku rasa x syok la kena pisah ngan memembe suma, tp itu la adat kan? adat dlm kehidupan, pertemuan ada perpisahan, aku cuma bleh harap kita nya friendship x tamat skali ngan yg tamat pengajian la kan?, aku lupa dah suma kwn2 skolah rendah aku, aku just ingat nama, rupa x ingat langsung dah, geng2 skolah menengah mostly still in contact, and rakan2 kat sini, aku harap aku x akan lupakan depa suma, dah 4 taun aku dok MMU, fuhh, lama gak la, ramai yg aku kenai, mcm jenis pon ada, ahaha, lepas nih hubungan ngan memember kira sdikit tersekat la, x mcm skang neh, time nak lepak2 tuh kira dah kurang sket, lepas nih ada tanggungjwb len plak kita maseng2 nak kena tanggung, dok teringat zaman aku dok ostel dulu, best, most of the time kita ngan memembe ja, alahai, rasa x mo plak aku berenti pegang status student nih, adeh, haha.

So, kepada rakan2, aku nak ucapkan trima kaseh kat ampa suma pasai keep me occupied all these time, aku x kan lupa kenangan ngan ampa suma, aku x yah la sebut nama la kot? Satgi ada missing nama sapa2, kecik ati plak, heheh, ini untuk suma yg mengenali diri aku la, yg kenal, yg tau, yg suka, yg benci, walau apa pon peranan ampa dalam drama idop aku, aku x akan lupa kat ampa, kehadiran ampa la buat aku rasa aku hidop lg, hehe, aku penah mati skali, so aku x harap aku mati lagi skali. Even if you guys are not around me, you’ll always be close.

So, lastly, nak wish2 la plak, aku wish all the best to whatever thing yg ampa dok buat, aku wish ampa lead a good life, hmm, heppy besday utk Zue, besday dia 31^st Jan aritu, hehe, Pak Tam besday arini, 2^nd Feb, bila ang nak nikah Pak Tam? Lama dah aku dok tunggu nih, ahaha, lg, esok ramai sgt aa yg celeb besday, Mun, Sajeev Raj, Topek, hmm, then, all the best sapa x sapp lg, moga2 bleh pas, InsyaAllah. Hmm, selamat bercuti la kpada yg looking forward nak balek kmpung jumpa yg tersayang. Lg apa? Aaa, moga2 kwn aku yg sorang tuh cepat dpt gheja, bleh la open table kerap2, hakhak. K, rite, I’m gone.

Cuti dan buang masa: trend atau tradisi?

2007-01-17T10:05:00.000+08:00

Salam. Ehmm, 2 minggu dah berlalu sejak sem’s break, aku x start pon aku nya 2^nd phase for FYP, heheh, malas gila, aku nak bercuti, CUTIII!!!! Dok sini dah la bosan, cilaka sungguh, suma org dok bz study ngan gheja, aku lepak ja? Isk2, x pa la, idop seorang drebar mmg cmtuh kot? Kena byk menunggu, haih,

Ehmm, aku nak turun Langkawi kamis nie, lama dah x balek kampong, 2-3 taun la gak, huhu, nak kena balek la sat, jumpa adek badek kat sana, memembe sana, sapa nak ikot aku? Jom2. leh p poya2 d Langkawi, ahaha, depa kata langkawi byk berubah, ntah la, aku pon lama x balek, nih la baru nak p tgk, heheh,

Aku risau gak ngan result xm aku nih, hmm, final aku bukan x leh buat, aku rasa x dak la susah sgt, x senang sgt pon, gitu2 ja, tmbah2 depa nih p jumpa Mr Ng dah plak, Mr Ng kata ramai kantoi, aihhh, lagi la hancur harapan aku, dem. X pa la, I have faith, benda dah lepaih, ckp byk pon x guna, tp aku x rasa aku fail, eheheh, overconfident ka ego tuh aa?

P tgk kandang kambing aritu, membe aku nak menternak kambing, haha, baguih impian tuh, harap2 bila berjaya jgn wat lupa2 membe la plak kan? ang buat2 lupa kami, kami ligan ang tambat kat kandang kambing ang tuh, baru ang tau, ahaha,

Aku p UUM smalam, saja melawat memembe membe aku, huhu, membe aku pon ada sana, saja x habaq kt depa, ahaha, jgn marah aa, aku p kampus Bukit 1 apantah, huhu, lupa dah nama tmpat tuh, environment UUM menarik gila, aku cukup syok lepak sana semalam, x dak la serempak mcm kampus MMU Melaka, huhu, kampus Bukit 1 nih dah la jauh dr kwasan lain kan, so rasa selesa la, sesuai untuk belajaq, tp x dak tmpat nak poya2 la, ahaha, cukup sebulan aku rasa aku pon x larat dah nak p pusin pekan Changloon tuh, apa pon x dak, huhu, tp kan, kami dok sat ja smalam, mmg lehh nampak kontra la, student laki compare ngan student pompuan, kira cam 1:3, gila ahh, mana p abeh org2 laki nih? UUM x kan pompuan yg dominate? Sat ja kami lepak, tp mmg nampak ketara la, betoi la cam government dok habaq, kontra undergraduate mmg 1:3, mungkin pasai kampus kami lepak tuh mainly pompuan duduk kan? itu aku tatau la, yg pasti, kmpus MMU Melaka still 1:1, pheww, seb baek, ahaha, kk, slamat for everything ampa nak wat, so, sapa nak ikot aku p Langkawi? Jom aa, leh lepak2 sana, ahaha. I’m gone.

Ade ape dgn bas?

2006-12-27T17:16:00.000+08:00

Ahhh, rase nak post samting kat sinih, baru abes stuDIEing chap 1 crypto, haha, chap 1 je, dem, kacau bilau, byk lg nak kene kaver, uhh, xpe, buat mase skang, abaikan dulu, hehe,

Aku ader bace kat satu post kat Zie nye bloq, citer yg cukup menarik dan mendalam, korang kene try hayati dan fahami, klik sini kalo nak bace, sile2, amik, kunyah, telan

Amcam? Best kan citer dier? Hehe, bukan citer la sgt, lebih kepade nasihat ngan pendapat, sku setuju ngan citer tuh, cukup setuju, tp mampu ke aku sendri wat cmtuh? uhuh, aku citer kes aku plak, hmm, cane nak start aa? Slalunye, aku jalan kaki je, aku x penah lg la thn bas pon seblom nih, yg kes darjah tige tuh, bukan aku tahan bas pon, bas tuh mmg berenti kan? hehe, okok, kesah terbaru, aku ader gak tahan bas neh, tp, driver bas tuh x nak berenti, so ape patut aku buat? Aku kene ligan ke bas neh? Ke aku nak jalan kaki je? So ape aku nye keputusan? Aku ligan bas neh beb, kot2 la driver dier nak berenti kan, hehe, tp still, driver dier x nak berenti, huhu, nak wat cane kan? So, ape plak lepas tuh? Aku jalan kaki la kejap. pas tuh aku try tahan lg bas neh, hehe, tabah beb, tp still driver tuh x nak berenti, keciwa gak aa aku, x kan nak jalan kaki je kan? Heh, aku ade gak rase nak naek bas laen, tp aku x penah cube tahan bas laen pon, bas neh je satu aku nak naek, ade sesuatu yg istimewa pasal bas neh, aku tatau cana nak eksplen, huhu, byk lg bas2 lein kan? Tp aku hanya tgk diorang berlalu je la, tahan maen2 ade la gak, x penah naek pon, huhu, aku x berani ke? Ke aku terlalu berharap pade bas yg satu neh? So, skang neh, aku jalan kaki lg la, still dok try tahan bas yg satu tuh, hehe, time matters, mungkin lepas lame baru la aku try tahan bas laen plak kot, tatau la tuh,

Hmm. X paham posting aku kali neh? Haha, abaikan, x penting pon. Apepepon Salam Aidil Adha, sape2 raye kat umah tuh, ingat2kan kitorang kat perantauan neh, taburlah simpati kat kitorang, hakhak, kpade student2 MMU, all the best untuk xm, staDIE hard, pastuh sambung raya, haha, kk, slamat2, I’m gone.

Amore e Morte

2006-12-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

Salam. Rite, just finish with my Crypto assignment 2, got another … 5 to take care of, arghh, nevermind that, just wanna relax abit, so I’ve decide to make scratch here, huehue, its almost the end of the semester already, time pass by so fast you couldn’t even notice em, my family had moved to a new house today, I don’t have a chance to place my butt inside anytime soon, huehue, neway, even during Aidil Adha I will be here I suppose, mkn MCD mase raye, isk2, cam aku dok luar negare je, hakhak, my sis had been asking whether I’m going back home for Aidil Adha, well, I guest its not happening sis, Aidil Adha is during my xm week, uhuh, kalo nak sev bajet, jln kaki aa balek Aloq Staq, hakhak, lepas seminggu sure sampai,

Rite now everything seem to be taking place nicely, hmm, its kinda weird I would say, if everything flows on nicely, there’s sure something that I’ve overlooked anywhere, dem, it sure drive cold shiver through my body just by thinking bout it, could just hope so nothing unfortunate would be happening, man, I’m afraid that I wouldn’t stand the pressure anymore, rite now, I feel like being bent and just waiting to break, huhu, hope so it wouldn’t happen eh? Doa2kan untuk aku, I even goes back for a pack, huhu, man, I would say, this is just temporary, sementara, hopefully,

I wanna go to Rock The World 7, many nice band is performing, I wanna go to Myproof mini concert, I wanna see The Hidden and Blood on Wedding Dress perform, but its not happening, apakan daya, masa tidak menyebelahiku, arghh, haha.

I’ve read an article bout human psychology among people in America, statistically, they said that Americans, 44% of them are more to suicidal tendencies, and 27% are into homicidal tendencies, if you ask me, that is scary, I mean, you wouldn’t want to be dead just because another guys wants to be dead, rite? Huhu, maybe they’ve done a research in a high crime rating place like Harlem or even the big city New York. I would say, place like that sure will gave up statistic like that, people there have been pressured with everything that had been surrounding them: profession, relationship, self esteem, neighborhood, its sure could trigger up someone rage, or even grief to a max, and would certainly lead to either suicidal or homicidal. And this article is what hassle me to put such title of Amore e Morte for this particular post, heheh, wandering what Amore e Morte means? I don’t understand Latin either (is Amore e Morte in Latin? I just assume it is), heheh, but I’ve read somewhere that it means Love and Death. For me, this quotation sure means a lot. We could never run away from this two, love and death, even if you try to, it will hunt you down and smack you flat to the ground, so I said, open your hand wide and embers it with your warm hug. Don’t try to end your life on your own, even if you desperately wanna be dead, let me do it for you, haha.

Lastly, I would wanna wish all the best to all who will be going through exam, study hard, all the best, and let it all out during exam, and so, happy birthday to anyone who will be celebrating it soon, Merry Christmas, Salam Aidil Adha, and all other happy2 thing, and I apologies once again to those I’ve hurt. Even so you wouldn’t wanna forgive me, just except my apologies. I don’t expect what I’ve done will lead to this, hmm, maybe I’m into suicidal tendencies eh? Haha, don’t worry me, its not happening…..hopefully, I’m gone. Amore e Morte.

Not so furious?

2006-12-07T08:08:00.001+08:00

ahaha, this is a nice parody song from the Hitz.fm Morning Crew, JJ and Rudy, they're quite good in mocking people, hahaha. This time they do the Fast and Furious song by Teriyaki Boyz, in the local version, dedicated to all street racer here in Malaysia, or locally known as Mat Rempit, haha. The song was entitled as Not so Furious, listen to the song man, its hillarious!! hahaha. Below is the lyrics that I've jot down while listening to the song, if there's ??? somewhere inside it, fill it in with anything that would make you happy. haha.

Not So Furious
By JJ and Rudy

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

Ei Rashaee,
Tell us a bit la,
Would you call me a Mat Rempit?

I oughta go fast just a little bit,
Come in another road,
I'll go *pet*pet*,
Ampang [yeah], Seremban [yeah],
I'll do superman, sedikit,
Morning Crew boys Sepuluh CC,
On my motor, I'm the VIP.

Many2 car all driving,
Cutting here and there,
No safefeeling,
Screaming, Scolding, Horning, Speeding,
None of them even looking,
I don't want no probelem [sori aa],
Need to go to work,
So please ????,
Turning, Cutting, Ciloking [thank you],
Hopefully I don't get saman.

?? sudah chrome,
Mudguard sudah chrome,
My chamber is buluh,
My motor is still slow,
My kocek is kosong,
My paycheck, they're so low,
Tweaking, Eding?,
Exhaust styling, Money spending,
Still quite slow.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
Alamak, dude, wait, hold on,
TRANSFORM.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

Break it down, Come on,
Orait, here we go, here we go,
Anda sedia? Anda sedia? [Sudah sedia],
Jaga2 bahaya,
Saya mau, want want want,
Ape tak ternyanyi you?,
Pasal saye tak pahahaham.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

OK, habes already, jom balek,
We're getting a bad rap,
Let's get outta here,

*preng*preng*preng*
SUPERMAN!!
*boom*
PATAH KAKI!!!
KEPALE MELETOP!!!

**credit to JeeMeeAng for the file, thnx dude.**

Running In Wheel?

2006-12-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

I am running from something,
I don’t know,
I am searching for something,
Which way to go?
I am trying to separate what’s real,
I’m running in a wheel.
-In Flames : Trigger-

Ahh, this particular phase of the song really reflected my felling nowadays, feels like I’m being tested by everything that surrounding my world nowadays. Necessity doesn’t always mean important eh? Friendship? Heh, sound more like friendshi* to me. How dare I write such things eh? I guess those who knew would understand why. I’m just stating it here so you people would know that it come from myself, not from somebody else. Maybe I don’t have enough guts to spit these things on their face. But this would be better rather than talking behind a person backs eh? Don’t go around and think that everything is like what you assume it is. I’m sorry if my posting this time hurt anybody’s feeling, it’s not the actual intention. I’m a human also. Do the thinking.

Am I dancing all alone? Am I running in a wheel? Just hoping so the answers would be no, but, heh, guess that won’t be happening anytime around now. I’m gone…

She owns enough of preciousness

2006-11-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

Salam. Arini tergerak ati nak bukak cite kesah lame dedulu, huhu, nostalgia cinta pertama mungkin, suddenly teringat kat si dier la plak, hakhak, adeh. Kesah ni time aku skolah rendah agame kat slangor, dajah bape aku x ingat la plak, tp before dajah pat aa, pasal pas dajah tige aku dah x skolah agame dah, tuh yg jahil sket bab2 agame neh, huhu.

Hmm, dulu klas aku nih ade aa sorang minah baru masuk, name dier pon aku da x ingat, mentally impaired, x bape betol la org kite kate, bukan gile, cume, lurus bendol la, x leh nak pikir sendri, ikot je ape org ckp, cian dier beb, slalu kene kaco, dah la bebaru masuk skolah, aku salah seorang yg terlibat la dlm ganguan tuh,

Hmm, minggu pertame dier masuk, stakat kaco sket2 je, aku x join g time tuh, x brani, pasal mak bapak dier suke tinjau2 dier kat skolah, ahak, mak bapak mane x syg anak ek?, start minggu kedua, nampak line klear sket, mulelah gangguan besar2an, suro dier buat itu, buat ini, kesian, aku x de le kaco dier secare langsung, aku cume jadi penonton yg terasa terhibur, makin lame makin dasat plak gangguan diorang, skali tuh ade la mamat nih, membe aku aa gak, asah pensel pakai sharpener atas meje dier, pastuh suro dier mkn, dem, karbon tuh, suroh anak org telan karbon, aku dah x rase x syok, tp still, aku sapot, nak tgk, dier nak mkn ke x nak, minah ni kan x bape betol, dier mkn jek, sampai tersedak2, isk2, abis itam mulut dier, aku dah rase bersalah, then membe aku asah lg pensel atas meje dier, suro lg dier mkn, aku time nih dah tukar pihak dah, aku bekup minah tuh la plak, kesian aku tgk, dak2 pompuan lein x brani nak kaco, pasal membe aku tuh antare pelajar bermasalah la, lgpon dak2 pompuan lein x masuk sgt ngan minah lurus tuh, aku bekup aa dier, x bg dier mkn, tolak bebende yg membe aku asah tuh jatuh atas lantai, membe aku pon hangin aa, then kitorang pon gaduh, gaduh cane, sape menang, jgn tanye aku la, aku x ingat dah, tp aku rase aku kalah, hakhak, x kesah, abaikan,

Lepas2 kes tuh, aku kene pulau ngan satu kelas, membe aku tuh la suro, cilake jek, kuat pengaruh dier ek? So, dudukla aku ngan minah lurus bendol tuh, dak2 kelas pulaukan kitorang, letak meje kitorang dkt ujung kelas dkat2 tong smpah, start dr situ aa aku mule kenal2 minah neh, seblom nih mane penah ckp pon, selain dr lurus bendol dier, yg lain sume ok, ckp ape sume x de masalah, ari2 aku je le layan dier, mcm ayat regular membe baek aku skang, perasaan pon mule berputik, biase la kan, relationship leads to intimacy, rite? Aku tatau la dier rase cane, huhu, unlikely la kan dier nak ade perasaan cam aku rase, mentally impaired, bebende cmtuh mampos nak reti, hehe,

Penah satu kali tuh aku almost gaduh ngan ustaz skolah pasal dok perli2 minah nih kan, uztaz tuh early 20 je mase tuh, x matang g, hakhak, lame2 kesah sedih pon bermule, aku kerap nampak mak bapak minah tuh dtg skolah, aku ingatkan pekehey, rupe2nye minah tuh slalu kene buli ngan dak2 pompuan gak, lg dasat yg tuh, kene sepak terajang, smpai lebam2, isk2, aku x bleh nak protect dier pasal diorang buat mase same2 pompuan jek, cilake tol, keji giler, minah lurus nih x brani nak bgtau mak bapak dier pasal kene ugut, cikgu2 skolah just bgtau ade org dok buli dier, sape dier x bgtau la plak, aku suro minah tuh bgtau aku pon dier x brani, aku smpai skang tatau sape nye keje, last2 mak bapak dier decide nak bg dier tukar skolah, sedih aku, 3 bulan je kenal dier, dahla ari last dier dtg skolah aku lak x de, demam, arghh, x de jodoh la kot eh? Heh, so, abis la kesah cinte pertama aku, tamat camtuh jek, dier per citer skang aku pon tatau, pas dajah tige, aku plak pindah,

Ade ak aku mention yg dier 2 taun lg tue dr aku? Huhu, that means if I’m 20, she’d 22 already. I bet she had become a marvelous women, cause during that time, she’s damn cute already. Maybe skang da kawen, mane tau kan? Aku sentiase doakan dier hidop bahagie. Aku pon tatau la pesal tetibe teringat kesah lame nih balek, haih, apekebende la yg aku dok pikir? Byk bende yg PERLU aku selesaikan x setel2, bebende cmnih plak dok ade lam kpale, parah2. fuhh, panjang karangan aku, huhu, OK, I’m gone.

Cried for remedy

2006-11-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

lame dah x post pepe kat sini, hehe, yg aritu x de bende pon, arini time tgh keseorangan nih, baek aku fill up bloq aku neh, huhu, bloq neh idop g tau? jgan ingat dah mampos, haha

hmm, ape aku nak cite ah? x de pe yg menarik pon sejak due menjak neh, yg x menarik ade byk le, huhu, baru start sem, kene reject, fyp dah kene start, tutorial sume kene submit, lecturer plak serong kekiri sket, assignment subjek g kene submit, minggu dpan dah start test, klas ari kamis lapan jam, ape lg yg x menarik aa? aha, paling berat, wallet makin kurus, aku gak x kekurus pon, minyak kete lg x de, kayuh kaki je le skang neh, dah la musim ujan, basuh baju x kekering, kete baru basuh da kotor balek, memembe pon sume nampak tertekan jek, sekaligus efek ngan aku skali, haih, susah2, dahla semenjak due menjak nih pebende aku ckp pon mcm sakitkan ati org, adeh, yg tuh paleng parah skali, susah ati aku, ape yg bleh aku buat lg? aku dah mmg camnih, sarcastic sket, org utare kan? biase aa, jgn aa terase hati plak, aku mintak maap la kat sesape yg penah aku lukakan, physically or mentally, kite kalo tau ade memembe marah kat kite jd x senang tau, kalo bukan membe len cite aa, huhu, aku slalu tegur org ade masalah jgn simpan, tp aku sendiri suke pendam rase, huhu, x de org nak cite, so kat sini la tempat aku luahkan, lege sket rase,

hmm, then, eppi belated besday kat Min, 17 aritu, congrats kat Nik pasal aunty dier dpt baby baru, bleh le start belaja jd ibu ek Nik? hehe, pade yg tgh bercuti, cuti le abis2san, hehe, pade yg dah keje, gaji nak masuk dah, bleh le blanje mereka yg memerlukan, haha, pade yg baru start sem, stadi rerajin, aku x rajin x pe, hahak, pade yg x abes xm g, stadi le rerajin, korang manede supplement paper cam MMU, kantoi xm, otomatik lanjutan nye, so, beringat2lah, k, rite, i'm gone.

Hanya Kau

2006-11-08T06:44:00.000+08:00

nothing interesting, just nak post lirik lagu untuk somebody special, NOT my song, NOT mine, but still, she's got a place in my heart, i've never felt anything like this before, so, here goes, from The Siblings, Hanya Kau, this song's really fortify my felling to her, man, i'm hurt, haha
so, ehmm, like always, i'm gone

The Siblings - Hanya Kau

Hanya kau,
Yang selalu kurindu,
Wajahmu sering mewarnai hidupku,
Hanya kau,
Hanya yang selalu kucinta, selamanya,

Apa saja yg kau pinta,
Akan ku cuba segala,

Wahai dewi,
Kaulah penyeri dikala ku sepi, ketika ku sendiri,
Oh sayang,
Kehadiranmu umpama, sinar suria,

Apa saja yang kau pinta,
Akanku cuba segala,

Wahai dewi,
Kaulah penyeri dikala ku sepi, ketika ku sendiri,
Oh sayang,
Kehadiranmu umpama, sinar suria,

Bagaimana kan ku bisa,
melupakan dirimu,
hingga keakhir hayatku,
cubalah kau renungi, kata kataku ini,
satu satunya dihatiku, hanyaaaaaa,
KAU, sayang,
ooohhhhh,

Permulaan Satu Pengakhiran

2006-09-30T02:39:00.000+08:00

Salam. Kali posting lam bahasa ibunda skali g la, hehe, ikot nasihat seorang rakan, walopon dia sendri pakai bahasa modern science untuk blog dia, tp xpa, apis x kesah, heheh, skang aku da abes praktikel, tp belom setel sepenohnya la, report x buat g, presentation pon lambat g, haih,

Bajet nak turun mlk la sat nanti nih, dlm 5 atau 6 aribulan, tp xtentu gak la, kalo x jd nak wat cana, mlk ngan AS bukan nya dekat, kalo cam jarak p kola kedah ka len la gak, huhu,

So, kat sini aku nak ucap terima kasey la kat suma rerakan yg membantu aku physically or mentally, kalo ampa x tolong, aku tatau la apa nak jd kan, hehe, tima kasey la jugak kat IPTURA pasai kasi can aku praktikel kat sana, kt sana la dpt rerakan baru, tima kasey En Noor pasai byk membantu, tima kasey kat En Amir pasai jd rakan saya, satu2nya rakan staff kat IPTURA, huhu,

K la, lastly nak ucap selamat berposa, selamat berbuka, selamat bercuti, selamat bekerja, selamat ari raya, dan segala bebenda len yg selamat2 belaka, ingat aa, merah tanda berhenti, anda mampu mengubahnya, raya nanti mai aa umah,

pagi pagi pegi perigi
pegi perigi dgn cik keri
bgn sahur di awal pagi
berbuka plak mase tgh hari..

hauhauhau, jgn jd cam nie.... , ok, I’m gone

Deafening Silence

2006-09-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

Salam. Hmm. Feel like writing abit tonite, provoked by the NST Spotlight Article entitled Cyber infidelity comes to Malaysia. heh. This things is nowhere new man, its been awhile already, but now only people tend to know more bout this thing, so it were brought up,

Neway, all these happen mainly cause of mentality. Imagine, you’re a newly married couple, how come you so easily lost interest for your spouse eh? hey maybe it all started just for syok2 rite? Same as me, I chat with random people in the chatroom, talk bout numerous topics and some do turn out to be that kinda sexual intimate, hehe, I admit it, no kidding, and some even wanna meet me, without even knowing who I am, wow, I’m amazed, its easy for a one-nite-stand partners nowadays eh?

Referring to my previous post, people could easily fabricate a new personality to suit the chatting partner interest, you see? I could even be a girl, and chat with a horny guy. Pics? Ahh, I could get various girls pics from the net and declare it was mine. How bout it? I couldn’t even sure whether the people I’m chatting with are for real. How should you know? You tell me, heh. For me, chatting is just for killing time.

Back to the main issue, for me, searching for online partner is kinda nasty. What? There are no more women around you? That’s why you result for an online partner izzit? Pity you man. Heh. Maybe people would address chatting as another medium of communication, another option beside phone. Rite2, correct. Nothings wrong with that. But, the issue here is, you’ve already married, and still looking for an online lover, wassap with that? Like I said, its all because of mentality, I’m hoping so I won’t be one of them. Hmm. Wateveritis, should you lead a good life with your spouse, all these won’t be happening though, unlikely. K? Rite. I’m gone.

Merdekakah?

2006-09-04T11:35:00.000+08:00

Salam. Kali ni nak posting dlm bahasa ibunda la plak, kerana topik kali nih agak menarik sket, heh, so aku posting dlm bahasa ibunda dgn slang utara, k? Kali ni nak cita pasai merdeka sket, tergerak hati nak cita pasai merdeka nih lepaih dgr khutbah jumaat lepaih, tajuk khutbah pon sama ngan tajuk posting aku nih,

Khutbah ada sebut pasai kita nih, org Malaysia la umumya, org Melayu kita la khasnya, masih blom lg merdeka dari segi akainya, mentality tuh, kita nih terlalu leka dengan hiburan2 yg menghantui dunia la nih, kita lagi suka dok amik tau pasai artis2 dripada amik kesah pasai adik bradik, anak branak, dunia, ekonomi, politik, benda2 yg akan efek kehidupan kita, benda nih betoi, mmg bleh nampak, aku pon dirasuk dgn hiburan jugak, x mau la aku nafikan, haha, tp aku x dak la sampai amik kesah suma crita depa, x dak gheja, depa bukan kenai aku pon, aku dgr lgu depa ja, yg len2, abaikan, haha,

Dlm khutbah tuh pon ada crita, kemerdekaan kita nih hanya dipermukaan saja, depa dok tunjuk hok baik2 saja kt kita, depa kata kita merdeka, hidup aman damai, x dak pertelingkahan, x dak masalah perkauman, heh, itu suma mmg di permukaan saja, depa yg golongan atasan kita dok sebut nih, mmg la kita bleh nampak suma ok, suma tuh lakonan, depa nih pelakon hidupan dunia, Dlm komuniti golongan2 biasa, kita bleh nampak camna sebenaqnya, kadang2 kita2 sama2 kita pon x bleh setuju kan? Sama la dengan depa, depa pon org mcm kita gak, heh, k? tp yala kan, depa nak org ikot mcm depa, tp, ramai mana sgt bleh lengkapkan keinginan depa tuh?

La ni mcm2 ekstremist berhaluan kiri kita bleh nampak kan? majoriti depa tuh sapa? ampa sendri pon tau kan? So, lagi skali la aku tujukan soalan nih, merdekakah kita? Heh.

Let the Wind Blow Out the Light

2006-08-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

Salam. hmmmhmmm, i totally forgot bout my father birthdate yesterday, hmm, until today only I realize, hmm, hope it wasn’t to late to wish my father for a well living and a long, happy life. Ayah, moga panjang umur dan murah rezeki, amin. hehe.

This morning, before i get off from bed, while listening to a song, I was looking back to my child life, what i've been doing then eh? haha, well, i've forgot most of them though, but what's been carved deep inside, I hope i'll never forget it though, it was a nice memories. Neway, we while were a child, haven't we all wished for a dream profession?

Well, that was during our childish year, hehe, we were trying to reach a rope up high, trying, trying, trying. When we grow abit older, when we could start thinking, we begin to realized that it had a tough path to went through, so bit-by-bit, we begin to lower the reaching hand, during the rebellious year age, we had completely lowered the reaching hand until it all just be a dream that we only could dreamt for, why make people happy when we ourselves suffer eh? Haha, while we were on teen age, we could start to have our own dream, and again, the reaching hand goes up high, reaching for the rope, and hope so it won’t be lowered like before

During our time, the three typical dream professions that all parents told their son/daughter to run for are of course…

1st: Doctor - Reputation and cash obviously
2nd: Pilot - Similar to the first, reputation and cash
3rd: Teacher - Respect and humanity

Why these three? Because during the 80’s, people thinks that these three are the best profession one could posses. But then, nowadays, the list of three had been completely re-sorted, as I would say, heh. Nowadays, I see that parents tend to had their son/daughter as one of these three…

1st: Singer – Popularities and cash,
2nd: Actor- Popularities and cash also
3rd: Celebrity – Same as the first two, popularities and cash, heh

Why? Heh. The side effect of all those reality TV shows perhaps? Fabricates people mentality. Dunno bout it though. You yourselves do the thinking, heh, so, I’m gone.

A Second to React

2006-08-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

Salam. Good day eh? Hope so. Few days ago, i've read bout a new trend that had been spreading like a disease through our Malaysian youth. This new trend, or fashion style, or they themselves rather to called it identity, is called Gothic. Personally, i like this style and also the ideology, but not like until i also dressed up and act up like they do. No man, definitely not. heheh. I have my own style to stand on.

I donno where do Gothic originated from, but from what i understand, Gothic's, they accept death (who doesn't eh?). and some even don't appreciate being alive (pity them though, haha), so they applied they ideology into a lifestyle, and so come the dark dressed people with pale face makeup, similar to the dead people during Christian funeral, neatly dressed up.

Even so, i never expect Gothic style to affect or how would you put it? hmm, penetrate, to penetrate Malaysian youth community, heh. I'm very sure music is the main factor here, a few rock band that had given through coverage by our media do brings in the Gothic style, but the ideology, i doubt it, entirely. Our media, they only take in the mainstream American band, and i would stress here, mostly, they are just poser, heh, but i don't blame them though, obviously, media would wanted a good sales potential stuff rite? so those band, they came up to the surface, and, as always, people would follow trendy stuff, rite?

Wateveritis, a big hand to them for trying so hard expressing themselves, dude, x panaih ka pakai coat tgh2 hari nih? Malaysia hangat oo, hahaha. Luckily, Gothic's haven't came all the way to Aloq Staq yet, or had it already? i haven't saw any, if so, i would have few pics with them, haha, rite, I'm gone.

Flame in the burn out ashes…

2006-08-20T15:05:00.000+08:00

Salam. After reading Dina’s blog, I feel like stating my feeling oso, heh, Dina said that nowadays guys is kinda hard to be trusted upon, even if they are those we should trust. Well, it’s true though. Dina also mentioned bout the guys in this “virtual world”, which is what we called The Internet, she said that guys in this “virtual world” couldn’t be trusted at all, I couldn’t agreed more, even if I’m a guy, I didn’t deny that that’s a true solid fact, I’ve been “living” in this “virtual world” for quite some time already, and I’ve met many types of people: perverts, scammers, hoaxers and whatever kinda terms that they legally obtained. Out of the total, I would say that below 30% only could be trusted in this “virtual world”, and that amount only do reveal their true self. The rest? They are those kinda that would legally obtain the bad-boy terms. Heheh. Why would it be like that? Cause in this “virtual world”, they could conceal themselves, and when people thought other wouldn’t know what they’d been doing, they’ll suddenly become almighty and will obviously, do as they wish. heh. It’s a nature though. And all these doesn’t only applied to guys’ k?

OK, back to the main issue, rite now, world had becoming wilder, can you believe that a person could slit the throat of a mom, just because she won’t give you money, man, people would do anything within their capabilities just for satisfaction, nowadays its damn dangerous to both male and female. They both are risked to different kinda threat, but female are more threatened though. Wateveritis, all these threats depend on our act and exposures upon the world and community that we live in. If you live in a hood; you’ll be risked to getting a drive-by. Get what I mean?

Here I quote a bit from Dina’s blog:

Think girls, think. Sweet smiles and romantic speeches aren't just enough to captivate ourself. Any guy out there is capable to melt any girl with a smile, not just to only u. The same sentences, with the same sneaky smiles... had been given to many girls by the same guy. And u still believe that u are the only one special to him...?

And this is what I’ve comments on Dina’s blog:

agreed, dunia semakin liar skarang, so, do the thinking la kan? kalo senang2 layan jantan, people will judge you as a whore, straight simple, heh, and if the jantan always ligan perempuan, don't trust him la, even so, our best friend could go againts u nowadays, so, carefully choose your friends, be picky, don't give a damn what people would say, its your world you're livin in, "if you don't want a stranger in your house, don't let them in" rite?

K girls? Do the thinking, don’t just simply trust anyone who acted well, man, it could just be a drama, who would’ve known rite? A fabricated personality, so that people will see us as a good person, heh, I like this sentence a lot, “if you wanna know a true self of a person, get to know people around them”, there’s a lot of truth in it, and I’m holding on to it good,

Construct your word

2006-08-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Salam, how's life people? Hope all flowing smooth eh? hehe, yesterday my MMU supervisor came, man, i was afraid like hell cause i never submit my week log to my company supervisor, and i'm not knowing how this Mr Ng is, it sure sent cold shivers through my whole body man, just hoping so this Mr Ng is a cool guy, hehe

luckily, he is, a cool guy, man, we had a nice talk together, we even joking around, man, he surely can be made friend, i like him already even on the first met, even my company was not in yesterday, and he was cool with that as well, Mr Ng, i love you sooo much, muaahhh, hahaha,

hmm, i would like to say something here though, a bit provocative, so if you think you couldn't handle it, stop your reading here,

people always dissing me reading comics or ridicolous reading stuff such as extraterrestrials (is the spelling correct? hope so, haha), mysteries, hey, for me, its just for entertainment, same cases when people read bout artist, gossip, merely for entertainment, i don't quite interested i that kinda entertainment though, so i go for comics, or the academical term is, graphical novels, heheh, its more to a hobby already, if people ask me what my hobby is? heh, reading will be a part of my answer, surely, it is wasting time, yes it is, but how bout other kinda reading? was it not wasting time? hmm?