- HEAR me -

I saw you look away
Is what you've seen too much to take
Or are you blind and seeing nothing?

-Bullet For My Valentine : Hands Of Blood-

My heart is worn out to keep beating
My lungs exhausted by all this breathing
My mind's too tired to keep grieving
My throat is too sore for more screaming
My eyes too swollen for more weeping
My wounds are too dry for more bleeding
My blood too drained for more streaming

-Sentenced : My Slowing Heart-

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!!Ade ape dgn bas?
( Wednesday, December 27, 2006 )

Ahhh, rase nak post samting kat sinih, baru abes stuDIEing chap 1 crypto, haha, chap 1 je, dem, kacau bilau, byk lg nak kene kaver, uhh, xpe, buat mase skang, abaikan dulu, hehe,

Aku ader bace kat satu post kat Zie nye bloq, citer yg cukup menarik dan mendalam, korang kene try hayati dan fahami, klik sini kalo nak bace, sile2, amik, kunyah, telan

Amcam? Best kan citer dier? Hehe, bukan citer la sgt, lebih kepade nasihat ngan pendapat, sku setuju ngan citer tuh, cukup setuju, tp mampu ke aku sendri wat cmtuh? uhuh, aku citer kes aku plak, hmm, cane nak start aa? Slalunye, aku jalan kaki je, aku x penah lg la thn bas pon seblom nih, yg kes darjah tige tuh, bukan aku tahan bas pon, bas tuh mmg berenti kan? hehe, okok, kesah terbaru, aku ader gak tahan bas neh, tp, driver bas tuh x nak berenti, so ape patut aku buat? Aku kene ligan ke bas neh? Ke aku nak jalan kaki je? So ape aku nye keputusan? Aku ligan bas neh beb, kot2 la driver dier nak berenti kan, hehe, tp still, driver dier x nak berenti, huhu, nak wat cane kan? So, ape plak lepas tuh? Aku jalan kaki la kejap. pas tuh aku try tahan lg bas neh, hehe, tabah beb, tp still driver tuh x nak berenti, keciwa gak aa aku, x kan nak jalan kaki je kan? Heh, aku ade gak rase nak naek bas laen, tp aku x penah cube tahan bas laen pon, bas neh je satu aku nak naek, ade sesuatu yg istimewa pasal bas neh, aku tatau cana nak eksplen, huhu, byk lg bas2 lein kan? Tp aku hanya tgk diorang berlalu je la, tahan maen2 ade la gak, x penah naek pon, huhu, aku x berani ke? Ke aku terlalu berharap pade bas yg satu neh? So, skang neh, aku jalan kaki lg la, still dok try tahan bas yg satu tuh, hehe, time matters, mungkin lepas lame baru la aku try tahan bas laen plak kot, tatau la tuh,

Hmm. X paham posting aku kali neh? Haha, abaikan, x penting pon. Apepepon Salam Aidil Adha, sape2 raye kat umah tuh, ingat2kan kitorang kat perantauan neh, taburlah simpati kat kitorang, hakhak, kpade student2 MMU, all the best untuk xm, staDIE hard, pastuh sambung raya, haha, kk, slamat2, I’m gone.

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!!Amore e Morte
( Friday, December 15, 2006 )

Salam. Rite, just finish with my Crypto assignment 2, got another … 5 to take care of, arghh, nevermind that, just wanna relax abit, so I’ve decide to make scratch here, huehue, its almost the end of the semester already, time pass by so fast you couldn’t even notice em, my family had moved to a new house today, I don’t have a chance to place my butt inside anytime soon, huehue, neway, even during Aidil Adha I will be here I suppose, mkn MCD mase raye, isk2, cam aku dok luar negare je, hakhak, my sis had been asking whether I’m going back home for Aidil Adha, well, I guest its not happening sis, Aidil Adha is during my xm week, uhuh, kalo nak sev bajet, jln kaki aa balek Aloq Staq, hakhak, lepas seminggu sure sampai,

Rite now everything seem to be taking place nicely, hmm, its kinda weird I would say, if everything flows on nicely, there’s sure something that I’ve overlooked anywhere, dem, it sure drive cold shiver through my body just by thinking bout it, could just hope so nothing unfortunate would be happening, man, I’m afraid that I wouldn’t stand the pressure anymore, rite now, I feel like being bent and just waiting to break, huhu, hope so it wouldn’t happen eh? Doa2kan untuk aku, I even goes back for a pack, huhu, man, I would say, this is just temporary, sementara, hopefully,

I wanna go to Rock The World 7, many nice band is performing, I wanna go to Myproof mini concert, I wanna see The Hidden and Blood on Wedding Dress perform, but its not happening, apakan daya, masa tidak menyebelahiku, arghh, haha.

I’ve read an article bout human psychology among people in America, statistically, they said that Americans, 44% of them are more to suicidal tendencies, and 27% are into homicidal tendencies, if you ask me, that is scary, I mean, you wouldn’t want to be dead just because another guys wants to be dead, rite? Huhu, maybe they’ve done a research in a high crime rating place like Harlem or even the big city New York. I would say, place like that sure will gave up statistic like that, people there have been pressured with everything that had been surrounding them: profession, relationship, self esteem, neighborhood, its sure could trigger up someone rage, or even grief to a max, and would certainly lead to either suicidal or homicidal. And this article is what hassle me to put such title of Amore e Morte for this particular post, heheh, wandering what Amore e Morte means? I don’t understand Latin either (is Amore e Morte in Latin? I just assume it is), heheh, but I’ve read somewhere that it means Love and Death. For me, this quotation sure means a lot. We could never run away from this two, love and death, even if you try to, it will hunt you down and smack you flat to the ground, so I said, open your hand wide and embers it with your warm hug. Don’t try to end your life on your own, even if you desperately wanna be dead, let me do it for you, haha.

Lastly, I would wanna wish all the best to all who will be going through exam, study hard, all the best, and let it all out during exam, and so, happy birthday to anyone who will be celebrating it soon, Merry Christmas, Salam Aidil Adha, and all other happy2 thing, and I apologies once again to those I’ve hurt. Even so you wouldn’t wanna forgive me, just except my apologies. I don’t expect what I’ve done will lead to this, hmm, maybe I’m into suicidal tendencies eh? Haha, don’t worry me, its not happening…..hopefully, I’m gone. Amore e Morte.

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!!Not so furious?
( Thursday, December 07, 2006 )

ahaha, this is a nice parody song from the Hitz.fm Morning Crew, JJ and Rudy, they're quite good in mocking people, hahaha. This time they do the Fast and Furious song by Teriyaki Boyz, in the local version, dedicated to all street racer here in Malaysia, or locally known as Mat Rempit, haha. The song was entitled as Not so Furious, listen to the song man, its hillarious!! hahaha. Below is the lyrics that I've jot down while listening to the song, if there's ??? somewhere inside it, fill it in with anything that would make you happy. haha.


Not So Furious
By JJ and Rudy


I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

Ei Rashaee,
Tell us a bit la,
Would you call me a Mat Rempit?

I oughta go fast just a little bit,
Come in another road,
I'll go *pet*pet*,
Ampang [yeah], Seremban [yeah],
I'll do superman, sedikit,
Morning Crew boys Sepuluh CC,
On my motor, I'm the VIP.

Many2 car all driving,
Cutting here and there,
No safefeeling,
Screaming, Scolding, Horning, Speeding,
None of them even looking,
I don't want no probelem [sori aa],
Need to go to work,
So please ????,
Turning, Cutting, Ciloking [thank you],
Hopefully I don't get saman.

?? sudah chrome,
Mudguard sudah chrome,
My chamber is buluh,
My motor is still slow,
My kocek is kosong,
My paycheck, they're so low,
Tweaking, Eding?,
Exhaust styling, Money spending,
Still quite slow.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
Alamak, dude, wait, hold on,
TRANSFORM.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

Break it down, Come on,
Orait, here we go, here we go,
Anda sedia? Anda sedia? [Sudah sedia],
Jaga2 bahaya,
Saya mau, want want want,
Ape tak ternyanyi you?,
Pasal saye tak pahahaham.

I wonder if you know,
How to be a mat motor,
If you likely ?? tyres,
Then you really2 low,

We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]
We not so furious,
[Rempit, rempit, rempit, rempit]

OK, habes already, jom balek,
We're getting a bad rap,
Let's get outta here,

*preng*preng*preng*
SUPERMAN!!
*boom*
PATAH KAKI!!!
KEPALE MELETOP!!!

**credit to JeeMeeAng for the file, thnx dude.**

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!!Running In Wheel?
( Sunday, December 03, 2006 )

I am running from something,
I don’t know,
I am searching for something,
Which way to go?
I am trying to separate what’s real,
I’m running in a wheel.
-In Flames : Trigger-


Ahh, this particular phase of the song really reflected my felling nowadays, feels like I’m being tested by everything that surrounding my world nowadays. Necessity doesn’t always mean important eh? Friendship? Heh, sound more like friendshi* to me. How dare I write such things eh? I guess those who knew would understand why. I’m just stating it here so you people would know that it come from myself, not from somebody else. Maybe I don’t have enough guts to spit these things on their face. But this would be better rather than talking behind a person backs eh? Don’t go around and think that everything is like what you assume it is. I’m sorry if my posting this time hurt anybody’s feeling, it’s not the actual intention. I’m a human also. Do the thinking.


Am I dancing all alone? Am I running in a wheel? Just hoping so the answers would be no, but, heh, guess that won’t be happening anytime around now. I’m gone…

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